Disappointed

Recently someone I love very much disappointed me. This of course is a given. If you ever have a relationship with anyone at some point they will disappoint you and make you angry.This does not mean they don’t love you, it means they are human. In my disappointment I try to remember that I too have disappointed people.  I didn’t set out to hurt the ones I love and neither did my loved one....more

I want

I wait in the dark watching the fan in the dim glow of the light in my room. I tense as I think I hear a sound, hoping that it is not my daughter, hoping that she is asleep. She is having trouble sleeping these days and all I want is for her to have restful sleep.  I need to wait a few more minutes before I peek in to see if she has fallen asleep. To distract my self from the worry of Emma, I start wondering what I want out of life.  These are my thoughts....more

I Am Invisible

I’m on the track team at my high school.  I sit at the top of the bleachers waiting for my race to start. My teammates don’t see me because I am invisible.I sit at the lunch table at school with my peers, the table is crowded but they don’t see me, because I am invisible.Sometimes adults can see me for short periods at a time. But it doesn’t last long. Bit-by-bit after several minutes I fade away right in front of their eyes and they don’t even notice. I am invisible. My mom is the only one who can see me all the time....more

My Prize

I believe that good things come to those who wait. But those who wait must have patience. And patience is not for the faint of heart my friend. You must have the fortitude to wait the hours, days, and in my case years, for what you yearn for....more

Imperfectly Perfect

My daughter is Autistic.  Four little words that can hurt my heart in a way nothing else can. Words that I never can get use to.  Four little words that killed my dreams for my child, at least that’s what I use to think....more

Imperfectly Perfect

My daughter is Autistic.  Four little words that can hurt my heart in a way nothing else can. Words that I never can get use to.  Four little words that killed my dreams for my child, at least that’s what I use to think....more

Oh The Places We Will Go!

There are certain numbers in your life that are milestones. There are several of them in a lifetime. Today, my youngest son turned eighteen. Suddenly, magically, he is now an adult. I know there is more to being an adult then a number. The number is just a starting place.He can vote, defend his country, and be held legally responsible for his actions. Yesterday he still was my little boy (I know he would not like that little boy reference but he was). Just yesterday he was playing with toy trucks and having sleepovers....more

Time

Time does many things. We know it flies and it marches on. I think the only thing times doesn’t do is stand still.  Time is relentless. It doesn’t care who you are, how much money you make or what you want. It passes just the same for all of us.It is interesting to me that even though time never changes, our perception of it does. Depending on our mood or an event, it appears that it will either slow to a snails pace or hasten to our deadline. Who hasn’t counted the hours till a long awaited vacation? Or bemoaned the fact that we don’t have enough time to finish our project?...more

And Yet She Runs

I went to pick up my daughter yesterday after track practice. She is a sophomore in high school and on the JV track team. I arrived early and was sitting in the car. As I was scanning the area looking for her, I spied a lone runner off in the distance. As the runner got closer I realized that it was my Emma. The other runners were far ahead of her. As she ran by me she gave a cheerful wave and said she would be done soon. As I watched her, it reminded me of how proud I am of her, of how her love of running is a mystery to me. ...more
Kudos to Emma! My daughter stayed in for two years despite the pressure of being the last of the ...more

A Love Letter

Where have all the letters gone? I’m not talking about the alphabet. I am talking about a written letter; a piece of paper with words on it, written by our own hand and more specifically, a love letter.In this age of technology I think we have forgotten the sweetness of the love letter, forgotten the meaning of a hand written letter filled with our feeling for that special person, the one we love. You don’t have to be a great writer to write one, you just have to love someone....more