How this one came to be

Despite the fact that I've struggled to allow myself to celebrate this pregnancy, and despite all the heartache that preceded it, I actually love the story of how it came to be. My miscarriage happened in October last year. As if it's not hard enough, my sister continued to be pregnant and soon my best friend, my boss and my direct report at work were all pregnant, as well ....more

Why the silence?

When I found out I was pregnant with Mo, it was on the heels of a year of struggling to conceive and just months after the ordeal of an ectopic pregnancy. When the good news of another pregnancy came, I knew I wanted to celebrate every minute of it, I wanted to tell the world. I understood all too well how fragile it was, I knew there were no guarantees, but I also knew that celebrating and sharing wasn't going to cause or not cause something to happen ....more

A motherhood moment

This is a story about toddler vomit. I'll try to go easy on the gory details, but if you're not interested in reading about how vomit was involved in one of favorite mom moments, this is your warning. On Sunday, we had family over and Mo had a busy evening playing with her cousins and eating lots of junk ....more

Florida or(and) Bust!

In early January, my brother in law told me he wanted to send my sister to Florida in February for her birthday. He couldn't get the time off work, but would I like to go with her? He'd buy my ticket ....more

No surprise here: I'm still not pregnant

In case anyone was waiting for the outcome of this cliffhanger: I'm not pregnant. It didn't come as a surprise, as you may have gathered in that last post, but it was still a huge disappointment. I had to go to work the day I found out, and I had a very full day ....more

An (un)happy ending?

I really thought I might be pregnant this month. Everything was in perfect order. When I lost my "May baby" I did the math and realized there was a good chance I could get pregnant again in January and have an October baby ....more

My Mo is two years old

Two years ago, I gave birth to a baby. I. Gave birth. To a baby ....more

2014 in Review

1. What did you do in 2014 that you'd never done before? Mothered a one year old ....more

Mo - 23 month

In (just under) one month, Mo will be turning 2. With no exaggeration, it seems like only a few months ago that I was at her first birthday party. How it has been 11 months since then, I have no idea ....more

What I wanted

I was fine. Or I thought I was fine. Thanksgiving started as a tough day, dining with two pregnant relatives ....more