After Crying...

I look a mess after crying last night and all for something I have no control over. Other than being in control of my own emotions, which apparently I have none of. It seems ridiculous to me to allow myself to get so worked up but thats how it happens. I need to focus more each day on how to separate my emotions from those things that I cannot change or cannot obtain in this case. Its a waste of my emotion and a drain on my self-esteem and my beauty. I have got to learn. I have got to learn. I keep chasing after love when I know that I am not ready for it....more