If...If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you; If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too: If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;...more
Hi Gina:  I have been thinking about you and hopeful that all is well and that your move went ...more

Family of Choice or Family of Origin: We ALL have a Choice in The Matter

Family of origin… the family in which a person was born. Since late 2009, I have read approximately two hundred books.  (If a person aspires to be a published author then read – read – read.)  Most readers and close friends also know I have invested hundreds (Yes, hundreds......more
 @elaineR.N. Yes we are like vacuum cleaners sucking up the negative. Laughter breaks the cycle ...more

Chaos is Usually Always Ugly, but God Still Forgives

Since I returned from burying our father, I have written hundreds (thousands?) of words in my journal.  The words flow from pen to paper like a broken water faucet.  To my inner circle of confidants, words spew out of my mouth like vomit. ...more
 @elaineR.N. you are gone already aren't you?  *sniff sniff*.  Thank you for letting me know.  ...more

and mom said, "I am so Glad Your Father is Dead…"

N.I.C.E.  Meet my mom. Yes, this is the woman I wrote about in my May 16, 2012 blog:Dear Mom: I Still Can't Call You on Mother's Day....or any daySimply put, memories of my mom are moreso bitter and far from all that is sweet.  (NOTE TO MOM:  It takes 2 to be in a marriage. There's enough blame to go around without placing it all on dad.)...more
 @elaineR.N.  (((((HUGS)))))  One day I am gonna be on that patio with you having that glass of ...more

Living in an Alcoholic Home is not a Spectator Sport (part 1)

On January 25, 2011, I posted a blog;“50 Minutes in an Alcoholic Household”...more
@elaineR.N. Elaine, please forgive me for taking forever and a day to reply.  Your comments ...more


Needless tolerations can bleed you dry of energy and make it impossible for you to function effectively.  You can’t live a happy, successful, fulfilling life if you’re spending all your energy tolerating things that shouldn’t be tolerated.  Sometimes you need to put your foot down....more
 @elaineR.N. Elaine I was soooooooo blindsided by some events after dad took his final ...more

Dad is dead: Collateral Damage- Family-Death & God

The fall out after dad’s death is happening. I can feel the collateral damage begin to accumulate.   Mother fucker.No doubt after all is said and done, scorched earth will surround many. Not me though.NOTE TO READER:  Google collateral damage and scorched earth. The traditional definition is fitting.......more
@TruthsfromtheChaos Happy for you that you are where you are. Hugs back to you!more

My Dad Died on Sunday

My daddy died on Sunday at 11:40am. We buried him yesterday morning at 10am.I started this blog last night at 10:15pm as I sat on the outside patio of a closed Starbucks.Think it odd…strange….insensitive that I took time to write a blog the night before I buried my daddy?  Under normal circumstances perhaps.  I think it is rather clear that I don’t come from a family of normal.  It was either drink, fight or write.  I opted to write.  Remember I come from fucked up.  I am working hard to be *less fucked up*....more
 @motherofnine9  Hello my Guardian Angel.  Thank you for all your words of support~ .I felt the ...more

Less Fucked Up: Is this too much to ask?

On top of everything now SHINGLESMother fuckerIs it too much to ask to be Less Fucked Up?...more
 @elaineR.N. Hey lady!  Never thought I would say this but, "Thank goodness it's shingles!".  ...more

Family Secrets….everyone has their own reality (version)

Truths from the Chaos “So just don’t say anything about the past. Move away somewhere and act like none of your past ever happened.”*Former sister-in-law* gave this advice to me in the middle of her horrid divorce.  She is also the one who said, "I just quit taking the medication and drink more." No surprise there - what a horrible, ugly divorce....more
 @motherofnine9  Mornin' Miss Meanie, First.....OMG. Hittin' all the nails right on the head up ...more