Uncensored Mama

I will not censor myself in the name of motherhood. For me, motherhood was the addition of newer levels of love, responsibility, knowledge, confusion, hope and fear. It added a new perspective to my past experiences and future goals. It added a life other than my own that I was required to care for with as much attention (if not more) than I gave myself. So many things were added to my life. ...more

becoming mama

I've been a mom for four years now and it's been the biggest adventure of my life. in four years I've shed my old skin in favor of a much more comfortable fitting one.I'm insanely in love with the man and boy who made me a mom! they make me laugh from my gut and gush in loving wonder every single day.my dear, sweet, magnificent partner, Mar. he has been my strength and balance. he has been the very definition of hustle and has done a damn good job of taking care of his family on his own terms. my pride is massive....more

terror as teaching moments?

as a mom, I'm finding my parenting beliefs and concepts challenged and changing on a daily basis. I'm thinking harder about what parenting is and how much of it we do out of habit without taking the time to analyze the 'whys' behind our children's behavior and our own reactions. this is especially the case with discipline. I'm realizing that I hate some of the things we as a society reflexively do to control our kids, much of which involves using terror as teaching moments. ...more
Totally agree. As my twins begin to interact with the world around them much more I'm realizing ...more

walking a tightrope

days like today I wonder if I'll ever find a true balance in motherhood, my relationship and work. as I write this I'm thoroughly exhausted, grappling with a migraine, wanting to snuggle up with my man but listening to our son tossing and turning trying to fall asleep and it's 11:30pm. yet I feel like I didn't accomplish 90% of what I needed to do today. ...more

NaBloPoMo - Blogging for Blogging's Sake

right now lots of fantastic things are popping up that are making me refocus my attention on writing and that's a very good thing. i need to reintegrate 'myself' into my life, being a stay-at-home-mom i realize that 'mom' and 'home' tend to be the predominate traits in my life. but writing has always been my release and a part of my life so i welcome the chance to allow it a comeback (now of course the lyrics 'don't call it a comeback, i've been here for years!' are running thru my head). ...more

hair we go!

this photo has me in a bit of a tizzy. ...more

What Bisexuality Is Not

I'm not entirely sure how to start this topic so I'll just say flat out: I'm a bisexual woman. For me this means I enjoy emotional and physical relationships with men and women alike. Let me tell you what, for me, this doesn't mean:It does not mean I'm confused about my sexuality.It does not mean I like 'playing gay' to turn men on.It does not mean I'm promiscuous.It does not mean I haven't found the right man or woman to turn me definitively one way or the other....more
 @scooterbus you made this worthwhile for me. thank you so much for sharing and many well wishes ...more