Being Open and Willing

I have been working hard to remain open to recovery. I realized I was becoming less adverse to certain items/options in my meal plan and LESS open to changing negative beliefs about myself. I am realizing that I have held onto my core belief that I am bad, unworthy and undeserving and everything I embark upon or try for in life, I will ALWAYS fall short due to my defective nature. So why try? I see now (mind you, I do NOT feel this!) that this keeps me stuck, but it also protects me from disappointment....more