doubting my relationship because of my fear

i had been in a long relationship about a year ago that lasted for 2 years the guy at first was great but then after the first month we started to fight. we were on and off for the whole 2 years till finally i had to say no to this relationship. we ended it and that was that, it hurt because i gave him everything i sustained him for 3 months when he couldnt i was always there for him emotionally and physically. i was the one saying i love you im in love with you i want to marry you your my everything. almost lost my family for him....more