I Refuse to Let Anxiety and OCD Hold Me Back

     There have been so many times that I've wanted to just give up and give in to my anxiety.  To use it as an excuse to not have to deal with anything.  Is it sad that I've thought about how freeing it would be to just accept my OCD and not try to deal with it, not try to live a normal life?...more

Mothering with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

One of my biggest fears is that I will somehow pass my OCD on to my children.  That they will see my checking and rechecking the doors, windows, oven and refrigerator before I leave the house or before bed.  That they will notice that I need to wash my hands whenever I touch the spatula that I am using to cook meat on the stove or the agitation I experience when having to take them into a public restroom.  I fear that they will think all these compulsions are a normal way of life and start to have a need to do them themselves....more

My OCD Realization

I was laying in bed late one night watching TV and a show came on about people with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  The one thing I remember from the show was there was a woman trying to leave her car in a parking lot but she kept going back to check to make sure she locked her doors.  While I was watching this show was one of the first times that I truly realized for myself that I wasn't just a worrier or a germ-a-phobe.  I really did have OCD<...more

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: The Beginning of My OCD Life

Eighteen years old was when I first started to exhibit signs of OCD.  I didn't know what it was.  I just knew that when I was walking, I was worried about stepping on a band aid, a condom (you'd be surprised how many of these are lying around in parking lots and in the grass), or any other random thing on the ground that could spread germs.  I would constantly watch the ground as I walked to make sure I didn't step on anything.  This was a lot of work as one of my favorite past times at the time was to go for really long walks. ...more