Julia's Birthday

Seven years ago this month, I suffered my third miscarriage. After my d&c, a very nice nurse came in with a little box, which held a small ring and a little book, as a keepsake. She squeezed my hand and I took the box and turned away from her and cried. Again.I went home to my five year old Katie and told her we weren't having a baby afterall. Then, in May, on Mother's Day, I threw up my breakfast and ...more

I Can Not Write

 I can not write, right now, because I am too busy playing Candy Crush Saga. If you know what this is, you understand. If you don't, please don't go looking for it, it will consume your life. I cannot get past Level 74, and it is making me crazy. I came within 1 FRIGGING ACORN and ran out of moves. I seriously teared up. And this is why I can't write. Level 74.Also, because I am at that jumping off place.  ...more

The Jumping Off Place

 I am at the jumping off place, she thought. She walked into his office and told him she'd quit. "You're not leaving the job," he said, "You're leaving me."She stood and walked out, because what he'd said was true.  ...more

Bum Rush

When I was five, or maybe six, we lived in Longview, Texas. Or Burns Flat, Oklahoma. It doesn't matter. I was a small person in a small town in a flat land in the midwest. My clearest memory is of the neighbor boy, who was always trying to get me to show him my heinie or kiss him on the lips or play army guys ....more

Title 17

When I was five, or maybe six, we lived in Longview, Texas. Or Burns Flat, Oklahoma. It doesn't matter. I was a small person in a small town in a flat land in the midwest. My clearest memory is of the neighbor boy, who was always trying to get me to show him my heinie or kiss him on the lips or play army guys ....more

New Year's Girl

Katie is the most interesting person I have ever met. She has gone from a serious baby to a precocious and sweet toddler to a charming little girl and now, a quirky and fun and fantastic twelve year old. Twelve's years old, today. My New Year's Girl.  ...more

New Year's Girl

Katie is the most interesting person I have ever met. She has gone from a serious baby to a precocious and sweet toddler to a charming little girl and now, a quirky and fun and fantastic twelve year old. Twelve's years old, today. My New Year's Girl.  ...more

Awake

It is very easy, I think, to give a dark seed a warm place to grow in your heart. It is easy to despair and curl up and stuff yourself full of pie and pity and a heavy, heavy dose of fuck it all. It is very easy to forget the things that give you the most joy and just get lost. I feel I have been a little lost.  ...more

O, Christmas Tree (of a most humbling nature)

Last year, you may remember that our artificial tree bit the dust last year, right before Christmas. I did two posts about it; one after the tree gave out, and one after we went out and bought a live tree.  ...more

Bettie

"Serve you a meat, ma'am?"  ...more