Why am i so tired

I'm deciding it's detrimental to my health to care this much - last night I slept for 45 minutes - he was being sick a lot and we had argued. I told him I hated him...so much for the 'new phase'. ...more

a new phase

so i think he is really taking steps forward with his treatment, he has shown me how serious he is about getting well...and so i'm trusting in that - i'm trusting that our reationship will make it, even though it will be hard i am making a choice to persevere - through the hard times and and to work on keeping my marriage vows day by day, minute by minute - until i can look back in the years to come and realise that we have made a life together, a good life full of memories and joy.  i dont know if this optimism will last but i have to believe my love will :) ...more

The open letter

I know that you are probably the best thing that will ever have happened to me but I feel trapped, it’s such a cliché but it’s what I feel. You are an incredible man, a passionate, beautiful and intelligent man. You have seen some of the best and worst of me, but I can’t help feeling that we bring out the worst in each other more often than the best. I have come to the conclusion that this is because I am not right for you, and you are not right for me. ...more

thanks for your comments

i won't leave him - i'm just going through a very very rough ...more