Ice Cream...

It has been a long and emotionally trying week, so ice cream is it! The cure for most bad weeks, heck days even. I remember as a small child being told that I could have an ice cream after a shot at the doctor's office or after a filling at the dentist's office. I would even get an ice cream if I had fallen off of my bike and skinned my knee. Ahhhh-ice cream. The remedy for all the crap moments in life. :)...more

Blown Away...

Not sure how or why it happened, and today of all days, my birthday... Our new place that I held up on a pedistal is not going to happen. I wonder if I had too high of expectations wrapped up into this move and the new house? Maybe I thought it was going to fix everything. ...more

Boxes

It seems overwhelming packing up my life in boxes. Boxes with little labels on them... Kitchen, master bedroom, nursery, garage. Everything I own is now packed away in brown boxes. Nothing on the walls signifying my family had even exhisted here. No pictures of vacations or little ones with missing front teeth. Strangers picking up our discards posted online for free. Boxes filling the garage as I play Tetris stacking them in some sort of order for the movers. ...more

Moving... On...

Well, I signed the lease today and faxed it over to the owner. It doesn't feel real, but I am moving, in 5 days. Here I go-tears starting to flow. I am leaving a wretched time in my life and home full of memories I want to forget ever happened. I loved her. I cared for her. I lost myself helping to save her life though. She was so different in the end. I still hear her yelling... name calling... I wake up each night scared that she is on her way home from a long night at work, and will be taking it out on me when she walks in the door-then I remember she is gone....more