Never Good Enough
Divorce is brutal on the ego and self esteem. Being told you're unworthy of love, affection, and attention basically rips you to shreds. Isn't that what a divorce truly is?
Being told that nothing you do is good enough.
Knowing that no matter how hard you try, it's never enough.
Realizing that someone who once was proud to be seen with you now doesn't deem you worthy of public recognition.
Loving someone who doesn't consider you worth the time or effort.
When an unexpected divorce or break up occurs, these thoughts and feelings come down on you like a ton of bricks. If you're lucky, you'll go on to find that someone who is proud to have you on his arm, who is appreciative of everything you do for him, and loves you just the way you are. If you're not, these thoughts and feelings linger on and burrow deep in to your soul. It takes a miracle to rise above them.
Where am I right now? I'm not sure. I'm doing my best and I guess that's all I can do.