It's Okay If You Can't Even Do Half 30. Or Any 30. Or Anything, Today.

The new year can be hell for an addict. The holiday season is bad enough, what with the world drinking all over the place like we do on April Tuesday afternoons or whenever, and all of those ads for parties and presents with bottles as phallic symbols or vaginas or boobs wrapped in tinsel and ribbon. Everyone pretending to be alcoholics and calling it a-wassailing, basically ....more


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I love smoking. I just can't do it anymore.

I love smoking. I would like to say I hate it, that after I quit every time that I put it down never to pick it up again. I'd like to say that I avoid secondhand smoke, and don't in fact hang around it just a few seconds longer than I need to, that my realization that cigarettes are the devil's handiwork and the product of a corrupt industry make me high five myself for giving them up and that I've never thought about doing it again at all because that would be stupid ....more

Because of Him

Written for and read at the Listen to Your Mother Baltimore Show, April 26, 2014 ...more

Cousin Number One

Originally posted as part of a larger post, September 24, 2008. My mother and her brother were over at my grandmother’s house a day or so after she died. I was sitting at the table and I looked up at the top of the server, as she called it, a huge China closet on top of a chest of drawers, essentially ....more

Shoot the Buddha, 47/365

Instagram, February 16, 2014 I never edit big camera photos on mobile, but this one ended up in my phone stream somehow and I can't get this place off of my mind, or the Buddha, or the green. I wrote a blog post about this day, and this picture. I would like to go back to this spot now, feeling and living like I do ....more

The things I love, 30/365

Instagram, January 30, 2014. I have way too much stuff, but only two possessions that mean enough to me that I transport them in my purse every time I move. (My iPhone doesn't count ....more

When the Affordable Care Act showed up in my mailbox

This is one in an occasional series of reposts from my Instagram #Instastory365 project that I'm trying out this year. This one is from January 7, the day I got my first bill for health insurance in the mail after close to two years of no coverage. I had applied before the December 23 deadline, not believing at all that a simple application would result in health care coverage ....more

I'm just a girl...who writes on the internet sometimes

Do you know that I went to preemptively add this post to the "Life" category, and I discovered that I don't have one?...more

Novemer 1

I wrote this post a year and nine months ago. I was so unhappy then, dying physically and emotionally faster than any 41-year-old woman ought to be. It makes me so sad to read it, so sad for that poor, sad, chasing-after-the-wrong-things girl, sad on a level that makes me suck in my stomach like I got punched ....more