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Well I did it. I quit smoking. After 13 years. And I'm not happy about it. Let me tell you why.
First, my coffee doesn't taste "right". In fact, other than the Quad Venti Caramel Macchiato every morning, my coffee tastes downright bad. I can't be having that. I need the pot a day to taste GOOD in order to function properly. I think I need the cigarettes in order for that to happen. I can't be spending my day at Starbucks ordering Quad Venti Caramel Macchiato after Quad Venti Caramel Macchiato. I can't afford it. And my digestive system would not like all of that milk. Not to mention I'm not a very productive mom or employee when I'm at Starbucks. And no, I cannot make my own at home. That would entail making a mess in the kitchen and I do not like making messes in the kitchen.
Second, there are some things in life that are just BETTER with a cigarette. Long and boring telephone conference calls. Phone calls with my mother. Phone calls with TW's mother. The after-sex glow. A cup of coffee. A banana. Stressful situations of all sorts - in other words, LIFE is better with a cigarette.
Third and most important issue is sleep or the lack of. I'm one of the lucky ones who suffer from insomnia when going through nicotine withdrawal. Do not bother suggesting caffeine reduction; doing so at this point would only further hinder my ability to sleep. Don't bother suggesting warm milk (digestive system unhappiness) or a walk (I'm lazy) either. Don't suggest OTC sleep aids either; I'm anti-medication but did give them a try - no luck. The only thing allowing me to get some sleep right now is exhaustion. No sleep for four days, exhausted sleep for one day, now we're back on the no sleep thing and I assume come Friday I'll get a night of exhausted sleep.
The question is now that I've quit, how long before I decide quitting isn't worth issues 1-3 in my life and I pick up the smokes again? Anyone care to guess? While you're guessing amongst yourselves, head over to Gidget Bones Diary. Gidget is quitting smoking because it's part of being a "good wife".
My first duty as a new wife is to quit smoking! And I have Dark's complete support! He likes to call it "Tough Love". And says that if I smoke, it will be as bad as if I had bed another man!
Obviously this is not one of my reasons for quitting but to each her own. Actually, I've forgotten why it was that I quit in the first place. Maybe it was dutiful wife related?
~~Denise
Daily Dose of Denise














