In Due Time

I am a 20-something infertile who has been blogging since 2005. I have been TTC since 2004. In 2008, I moved to Florida from Tennessee as my significant other, NYEBoy, was accepted to grad school. In 2009, my sister and then 3 year old niece moved in with us. In 2010, I filed for temporary custody of my now 4 year old niece. After a difficult custody battle, a judge sent her back to live with her mother. I also started college in 2010. I am currently adjusting to a life with just us as two full time college students.

Father's Day + Birthday

Today is such a weird day of emotions.It's Father's day and A's 7th birthday ....more

4 of 12

I am in the fourth week of summer classes, only eight more to go until finals. I am taking 5 classes, studying for a CLEP test, and finishing up work in another class.Busy.Exhausted.Overwhelmed.Exhuasted.Busy.Lather, rinse, repeat.So far, I am doing pretty good in all of my classes. It's exhausting trying to stay caught up on my work, but my planner is helping me focus on a week and day at a time. One assignment, quiz, and test at a time. ...more

MY Desk, Not Yours!

This semester I only have two classes on campus. One of the classes is in a lecture hall and the other is in the lab. I'm not sure if it was the first or second class, but I quickly realized the wooden seats KILLED my back. I don't remember who I talked to, but they suggested I go speak with Disability Services to see if they could get a seat cushion for the chair ....more

Can You Help Me?

NYEBoy: Can you come help me?Me: Do what?NYEBoy: Just come here.Me: Why?NYEBoy: I need help.Me: WITH WHAT?NYEBoy: Just come help me, please. I need your help.Me: No. Tell me first. What do you need help with?NYEBoy: I need help making Bagel Bites.Me: Are you fucking kidding me? Read the directions. NYEBoy: Please just come help me.Me: You're getting your PhD, but you can't read the instructions on how to make Bagel Bites? ...more

Just Another Monday

I am really struggling with my sleep schedule lately. NYEBoy is part to blame. Health problems are part to blame. Whatever it is, I'm not sleeping very well. I am utterly exhausted from about 2 pm until 10 or 11 pm and then wide awake until about 4-6 am. If I try to go to sleep at a decent hour, say around 7-9 pm, I'm lucky to get three hours in before my body is wide-the-fuck-awake. If I try to ...more

Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day.I don't have to look very far to see this day will drum up a multitude of emotions for the women in and around my life.Some of my dear friends will be celebrating their first Mother's Day as a mother with a living child to cradle. Others will suffer through yet another Mother's Day with empty arms and broken dreams. Some of my dear friends will be celebrating another Mother's Day with their mother, while others mourn ...more

The Plan

One of my favorite things about a new semester, is coming home with each syllabus and writing the major due dates down in my planner. It's slightly exhausting to see how much I have to learn and do in each class in such a short amount of time, but it's also a fresh start--a new beginning ....more

Granted or Denied?

Last Spring, I basically missed the second half of the semester because of medical problems. I decided to take one online summer class to allow myself to get caught up. By the time the Fall arrived, it was still clear things weren't settled and I decided to take the Fall off to hopefully give my body a chance to relax, but it didn't really work. Between the end of Feb and the end of Dec, I visited the doctors office ...more

83 Days

On the eve of yet another school semester, I am cleaning up my office, emptying out my school bag, and begging my body to go easy on me. I'm still not sure what my semester will actually look like since I am still waiting on the answer to my appeal, but if all goes according to my plan I'll have two online classes and two on-campus classes. It will be a very, very busy 12 weeks, but once all is ...more

Trusting Him Even When We're Down

The last few weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions. I'm trying to hang on so tight to the hope I came home with from the funeral, but it seems like those roadblocks keep popping up. I'm still not ready to blog about the struggles with school, but hopefully by the end of the week we will have a resolution, one way or another, and then I can share ....more