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An Open Door

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"Come on. I'll show you the baby's room," I say to my parents during their visit this past weekend.

So, I take them into the baby's room with it's newly painted lavender walls, the gifted crib, new super comfy glider with matching ottoman, new changing table, new stroller/car seat combo, and all of the other assorted and sundry baby things that we've either purchased or received as gifts.

"You've done a really nice job in here," says my mom.

"Do you like the color?" I ask.

"It's really pretty," she replies and then after a pause adds, "I guess I just thought you'd have this room closed up."

Really?

I relate this story to Chris after my folks have gone back to their hotel. He says, "What? Like if we have the room all closed up it'll be like none of this ever happened? Like we'll forget?"

PaintIn a way, I can kind of understand what my mom means. When the adoption first falls apart back in March, every time I walk by the baby's room it's painful to see all of that stuff in there. But somehow I can't bear to close the door. I can't make myself do that.

And I still can't just close the door. Doing that....shutting away all of the baby things...somehow that would be like I've given up hope.

So, the door stays open. I look at all of the baby stuff in there everyday. Every single day.

And I know that someday soon there will actually be a baby in that beautiful baby's room. I have to keep hoping that.

I have to keep hoping.

Photo Credit: inottawa.

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lynn22 5 pts

Bless your heart,Keep moving forward. We adopted 2 babies from foster care. It's an emotional roller coaster

lynn

momentsintimelynn.blogspot.com

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Thanks for the hugs and the hope, Jenny. Every little bit of positive energy helps so much!

jennyonthespot 5 pts

Hope. Yes.... Hugs to you and joining in hope for that room to be filled. I have a dear friend who waited and waited and waited. Of course every adoption sotory is so different, their ended up growing by a sibling pair. Hugs to you :)

Jenny Ingram writes at Jenny On The Spot ( http://www.jennyonthespot.com ) and wears glitter everyday. She also digresses over there on the Twitter @jennyonthespot ( http://twitter.com/jennyonthespot ).

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Thanks so much for the kind words and the virtual hugs. Every little bit helps so much!

carolinagirl 5 pts

BTDT. It's heartbreaking. We ended up adopting from China. I wish you much success in building your family and send you virtual hugs and hope.

Lorrie http://cluelessincarolina.com

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Hi, Temysmom, and thanks so much for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment (although I'm sorry to hear that your friends had to endure such an ordeal before coming into their twins!) Not giving up on this end...although I'm not sure how I'd feel if we were suddenly faced with the prospect of twins! I give your friends a lot of credit - that's pretty daunting!

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Thanks, LoloMojo, for sharing a little bit of your story. I'm sorry that you had to experience an adoption falling through, but am glad that things worked out for you. I've done some crying, but haven't gotten to the kicking/screaming/cursing stage...yet. (Maybe soon if we don't have any movement)

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Thanks, Ellie, for taking the time to visit and to leave such a lovely comment. I very much appreciate your kindness.

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Thanks, Jenna, for giving me the space to share my thoughts and experiences. I'm so honored to be featured with so many amazing writers.

temysmom 6 pts

Close friends of mine tried for years to have children before realizing that it wasn't going to happen and they started the adoption process. They were chosen by a woman to be the adoptive parents of her child and my friends payed all her medical bills throughout the pregnancy. They even had a huge baby shower in expectation of their child being born. When the birth mother went into labor, they were told by her attorney that she didn't want them to be there. Strange. Turns out, she had scammed them and never intended to adopt the baby out. They were devastated, as were we all as well.

About a year later, they found another mother who was looking for parents to adopt her soon-to-be-born TWINS. This time it all worked out perfectly and they got not only one baby, but two.

Don't give up - you're baby just isn't ready to meet you yet.

LoloMojo 5 pts

I've been through it too. Ours changed her mind 19 days before the due date. My nursery was all ready. My surprise shower was the following weekend.

And I kept the door open too. You have to, to keep going. To keep hope.

And you have to allow yourself to cry and kick and scream and curse.

I hope your nursery is filled very soon.

EllieAdorn 5 pts

Your hope is inspiring and I wish you all of the best in your adoption journey. You will be a wonderful loving mom.

By Cristi, Mom of 2, From My 3rd Baby: EllieAdorn Blog http://www.EllieAdorn.com

JennaHatfield 10 pts

Your writing shares this difficult issue in such a tender, easy-to-understand way. I thank you for sharing it with us.

Family Section Editor Jenna Hatfield (@FireMom ( http://twitter.com/FireMom )) blogs at Stop, Drop and Blog ( http://stopdropandblog.com ) and The Chronicles of Munchkin Land ( http://thechroniclesofmunchkinland.com ). She is a freelance writer and photographer.

jennifer.watson 5 pts

Thanks so much for the kind words and good thoughts, Mandy. They're very much appreciated.

fouragainsttwo 6 pts

Bless you and your wait. It's not an easy thing to wait for I know.

Mandy W.

FourAgainstTwo.com