The Pebble In My Shoe
Mahummad Ali once said, “It isn’t the mountain ahead to climb that wears you out, it’s the pebble in your shoe.” My life lately seems to just that, a series of pebbles that are slowly wearing me out.Have you ever had such a time when it seems to be just one thing after the next? Sometimes just a series of small setbacks that by themselves would not amount to a lot of worry or stress, but when added with another and another there comes a point where you think, “how much more?”
My life seems to be traveling down its own turn lane this month, and we’re only 5 days into the new month! Yikes!
Over the last few weeks I have dealt with the ups and downs of our daughter’s eye problems, which I hope will be resolved this week with yet another new set of glasses and contacts. In the meantime I’m trying to help her not be discouraged with this first week of high school because of her eyes. We have finished up CJ’s tutoring for the summer and now move into the anticipated time of this new school year where we will be meeting with the workers at the school regarding his testing and seeing if he will qualify for help. In the meantime he has developed a cyst on the back of his knee that is causing him a lot of discomfort.
Then I was thrown my own curve ball last week when I discovered that my mother (who lives in another state) was hospitalized after being sick for the better part of a month and even sicker for over a week. She was finally admitted into the hospital with a contagious infection of her colon due to all of the antibiotics that were being used to treat another infection.She is now very ill, very weak and very discouraged. While making plans to go home soon to see her, I am trying to deal with my emotions from a distance while I get my kids through the first week of school.
I am making plans to travel home for just 4 days to be with my mom but even that does not come without stress. I am the event planner at the Mission where I work and we are in the final stages of details for our big 5K/10K “Run with a Mission” where in the past we have had up to 350 plus runners all running to help the homeless. While my co-workers are very understanding and supportive of the fact I need to be with family, it doesn’t make the sense of responsibility I feel as the planner of the event any less, if anything I feel more stressed trying to get all the details in place before I leave.
All of this comes while there are other changes that could be on the horizon for us as we pray about direction for our family.
Alone each event can be managed, some with little thought, some with more thought; it is the coming all at the same time that makes the pebbles in my shoe seem more like a boulder at the moment. Yet, in the midst of feeling like I am being stretched and pulled, wondering “what else can happen”, I have a peace, a sense that the One who holds the world in His hands, also holds and cares for my small world and the stress it holds right now.
My faith allows me to rest in the hope that what seems small or big, a mountain or a valley, life threatening or just an inconvenience to me is important to the Father. He sees my stress, He sees my pain, He hears my whispers and He hears my cries, and He is there. When my world seems crazy, He brings peace. When I think, “what more”, He says, “I am there”.
This week, Psalm 46 is where I find myself:
“God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, Even though the earth be removed, And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea; Though its waters roar and be troubled, Though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah
The LORD of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah
Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!
The LORD of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah ” (NKJV)
Where do you find yourself this week?Is life crazy or is this a time of rest and peace for you in your journey?