By jasmine on September 21, 2009
This blog post was originally posted over at This Is Jasmine.
Things that have been on my mind and I swear on Imelda Marcos's bouffant I will write about. Here. On this blog. Maybe even today.
Every year, I look forward to the Emmys until I see that the nominated writers are overwhelmingly White and male. I ranted a bit on Twitter about this and then I wondered if I'm jeopardizing my own aspiring tv writer ass by doing so. I then got slightly depressed when I remembered that I'm in my 30's, in not great health, and also so risk-averse it's almost paralyzing. Seriously — who's still an aspiring thing in their 30's? I feel pathetic and small and petty.
But the fact that Kater Gordon, who split the best writing for drama prize with Matthew Weiner for "Mad Men", is credited as a writing assistant on IMDb and looks like a normal lady, gave me hope. Also that the "Mad Men" writing staff is a big old ladyfest and I liked that, too. Mindy Kaling is a writer, and a lady, and not White! So I felt hopeful, if not exactly clearer on how I should proceed. I want advice, but I hate asking for it, even though I clearly need it.
I wonder, though, if my tweets about my dissatisfaction regarding the lack of diversity behind and in front of the cameras are as articulate as I'd like. Do people understand my concern or do I end up sounding like a bigoted asshole?
So when do I stop complaining about the absence of diversity on television and start working on how to fix it? Am I terribly foolish and naïve in thinking I can make a go of this? No, but I have to do the work. I have to make good on my threats and promises to start and complete writing projects. I have to WRITE. While I write, I have to watch. Listen. Rinse. Repeat.
This whole Emmys/question of my personal failures question really got going in April when I attended my 15th high school reunion. While I had hoped to see more members of my class in attendance, I was glad to not have to say the same thing over and over: "Yeah, I like to write on the side. I'd like to write for television. I have no idea how to do that." A classmate mentioned that she used to work in public television, and that I should get in touch if I have questions. Have I contacted her yet? Oh of course not. God forbid I actually go forth and do something I actually want to do.
But back to tv. I'm going to start a tv viewing project. Hopefully I'll recap it here. But then again, maybe I won't. I'm trying not to make any writing promises I'm not sure I can keep.
PS: "Mad Men" this week? Fucking epic. If you're not already reading recaps of this and other shows over at A.V. Club, I suggest you do.
Bruce died last month. His memorial service was last weekend. My guilt about the disintegration of our relationship has subsided — people outgrow relationships more so than even I thought— but am I angry? At shutting myself out of his and Joan's lives for the last few years? At cancer in general? Oh, I think everybody should be angry at cancer. Cancer, you're an asshole.
PS: This is wholly inappropriate but I have to note that the night of Bruce's memorial, after the thing itself and the after-party (yes!) at Jimmy's with Joan and Joan's family and me and Maria and Clancy and Jacinda and Joe and Hyacinth (baby in a bar!) in one room and Bruce's Wiccan people in another (hmm), I went to Corinna's surprise birthday party at The Tasting Room. I don't know Corinna super-well, but I've always had pleasant times with her and her husband Rodrigo, so I was glad to be able to participate in her birthday festivities. Especially when birthday festivities includes open bar and a really delicious buffet. But that's not the inappropriate part. The inappropriateness was the dream I had that night I went to bed. Maybe it was the fact that I drank all day, or that the day was a bit warm, but I had one of those rare but entirely welcome sexy dreams that happen, like, once a decade. Naturally, just as things got going, my alarm had gone off, it was Sunday morning, and I had to get up for...
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