Post-Partum Body Image

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I used to be obese. Yep. You read that right. I USED to be obese. I worked my butt off (literally) to get to where I am at today. Since losing the weight, I have had two kids. I lost the weight both times, but pregnancy has made my hips and ribcage bigger each time. They didn't go back to where they were. (Yet, the 2nd baby is but a month old.) I find myself having a really hard time with the fact that my size 6's now feel like size 2's. I know it isn't my fault, and that I have two beautiful children to show for my larger hips and ribs, but I still find myself feeling fat an defeated.

When you spend a long time as a larger person, it is hard to see yourself as anything but. I ''know" that I am considerably (150lbs) thinner than I was before, but I still have that same mindset. That same, "no one wants to look at me, I'm not good enough" mindset. I am having a hard time moving past it.

My children are beautiful, my family is so wonderful to me. My husband loved me at my largest and my smallest. Why can't I?

 

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