A Really Bad Mood
I know moods pass and I know this one will too, but it sure isn't fun while it's here.
Perhaps it is post-trip let down now that I'm back to the same old same 'ol. Perhaps I have some stuffy head allergies. Perhaps I ate too much chocolate the other day and haven't been exercising. Perhaps it is just my hormones. Regardless, I'm crazy tired and feel like crying at times and noticing some negative thoughts.
I'm horribly sad that my children are going to be almost adults in ten years. So sad that their nowness will be gone. And then I realize how ridiculous my thinking is that I'm feeling like crying over something ten YEARS from now as if it was tomorrow.
I'm feeling fat. I'm feeling tired.
So this morning I made extra effort to get some tangible needed things marked off of my overly-extensive to-do list. I ignored calling the insurance company or hospital to argue a bill because I don't know how to go about doing that and figure I'll do a better job of it when I'm in a better frame of mind.
I meditated for ten minutes. It never helps in the moment, but I think it helps cumulatively and I'm amazed at how much I refer to the month of meditating I did.
I walked my kid to and from school which is only 1.6 miles, but it counts and it got me outside.
Mainly, I'm just trying to catch my negative thoughts, be easy on myself and do some of the things that generally help improve one's mood.
Our eating has been just fine. We had a lamb, cabbage, and tomato stir fry with Madras Curry for lunch yesterday and a really good chicken, mushroom, onion balsamic cream thing over spaghetti squash for dinner. Tonight will be butternut squash with pineapple and some asian inspired turkey legs.
I've got 8 minute abs planned for later today and some stretching. But first, perhaps a nap and some quiet time with a book to try to reset before I sit down to tackle some work for tonight.