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They suck you into their life by being nice and helpful and the deeper you get involved with them the more they sink their claws into you. They suck you in and make you feel bad for them because of their life and all that has gone on in it. They are obviously a victim until one day you realize, it’s nothing more than a farce. At first it’s not that noticeable, you just think that they are having a bad day and you make excuses for them, but this gives way to more and more negativity and you start getting angry and feeling like there is this huge ball of negativity sitting inside you and you can’t get rid of it. At some point this thing growing inside of you grew claws and the more time you spend around this person the deeper the claws dig into you until you feel nothing but destructive emotions.
I’ve been dealing with this for the last several years. I have a person in my life that seems like nothing more than a negative ball of energy. It started out innocently enough. We seemed like we had a lot in common and I started getting more and more involved in their life until little things started happening, then it became bigger things. It’s to the point right now that I can’t even think about this person without my blood pressure going up. It’s not as simple as just walking away from them.
But one of my resolutions for this new year is to CUT THE FAT OUT OF MY LIFE! All that negativity is not good for me or my family. Negativity breeds negativity. There are days when I get so angry at this person that I find myself yelling at my girls because of my feelings for this person. It’s not healthy. My girls know this and even understand it, but it’s still not right.
So this will be my year to get myself centered. I realize that there will always be conflict in my life, but I will never again let it get to the point where I have a hard time restraining myself from doing VERY.BAD.THINGS. Over the course of time I have learned to accept my negative feelings as they are. Yes, I’m feeling like total shit right now, but it is what it is now lets move on, trust me when I say it’s not an easy thing to do. Sometimes it’s so much easier to just give in and let it take over. But then we do and say things we will regret. That’s even harder to deal with. I am effectively choosing to move on from this. I’m going to get my heart and soul in balance again. I’m even looking forward to it.
What about you? Do you have someone negative in your life that you want and need to cut out, but find it difficult to? How do you deal with them and your emotions?
