Secret Regrets Left Online

I regret every single day not saying goodbye to you. I really believed you when you told me that the cancer wasn't as bad as everyone else said it was. I was in denial that you were dying. Seeing you in that hospital bed was horrible. I hated seeing you like that. I couldn't handle it. I loved you too much to watch you die. And then I quit calling you. I don't have a reason why. I was moving on with my life and thought you'd always be there...I'd just call you in a few months....or go see you. I sent you a text on a Wednesday night, saying that I was going to be in town that Friday, to see if you wanted to go get a drink or something. You never responded. Less than 12 hours later, while I was getting ready for my little girl's kindergarten graduation and work, I got the text that you passed away. I miss you so much and I have no one to talk to about it. I talk to you all the time, and think about you even more.

You were the love of my life - I always regretted that we were only 12 years old when I fell in love with you; we were too young and dumb at that time. I regret that when we were sneaking around in our early 20's, I couldn't leave my husband to be with you. I regret that you died right after I had the guts to leave him.

But most of all, I regret never saying goodbye.