For the past few weeks, my posts have been about me, me, me. While that’s all fun, it’s time to give others a turn. This week’s post is a round up of some fresh voices that speak to me, hopefully ones you’re not already reading. Here's some recent additions to my blogroll:
Grace Undressed: Mad money
"Every night is a good night now. I was sick of bad nights. I drive to work and tell myself I am beautiful. At the last stoplight before I merge onto the highway, I check my lipstick in the mirror. I am hot. I look good. Making money is easy.
I check myself again when I hit the sludgy traffic slow-down coming out of downtown at rush hour. I am hot. Hot. Hotter than a fast check. Money will fall on me from sky. Money, money. Money. It doesn't matter if I believe it. It doesn't matter what I believe. I say it and I make it true.
I have good nights now, and better nights. Men flag me down, buy me drinks, take me to couches, unbuckle my shoes and kiss my stockinged legs. They hand me bill after bill. Yes, money falls from the sky. Other girls sit in the dressing room and frown at themselves in the mirror.
Hot as a two dollar whore on the fourth of July. Hotter than a stolen tamale in a Laredo parking lot. So hot I make the hens lay hard-boiled eggs.”
Boobtown Boudoir: The last of my great platonic chauffeurs
"It could be said that one of the major reasons I have never gotten my driver’s license is because there have always been people around to do the driving for me. And by people, I mean boys. These boys weren’t my boyfriends, they were other boys, boys who were content just to have company as they glided over the roads in the most satisfyingly corporeal proof of adulthood imaginable. I don’t know why I never wanted a piece of this for my own, or why I equated the cars of boys with freedom when I was not the one doing the driving. But ever since I was finally old enough for my parents to allow me to get into the cars of my peers, I have been an avid passenger: all rapt eyes and enthusiasm, even when we weren’t really going anywhere. The same could be said for these not-my-boyfriends and their company. I wanted the sensation without the commitment. And the times that I have been able to obtain that have been among some of the happiest and most terrifying moments in my life."
Clea’s Magic Touch: I’m very thankful
“I realize that I'm terrified of him; this is what makes it different from the guys at work. I'm afraid that I will fall in love with him and that he won't love me back. I'm afraid that he'll fall in love with me and that I will break his heart, be another one of the women in his litany of love gone awry. He's older than me. He lives far away. He makes me want to get my shit together, have children, cook dinners, play music, and do something to save our rapidly heating world other than making people feel good."
Fatgirl Femme: Another One Bites the Dust
“It's safe to say that this year's Valentine's Day did not live up to last year's. Last year, wearing a pretty new dress, sparkly heels and a lot of optimistic dreams, I was treated to an incredible dinner at Carmelita's, and then whisked away to a suite at the Hotel Max. My date opened doors for me, gave me flowers, treated me like a queen. This year? That same person told me that she's still in love with her ex. And has been the whole time. She wanted to be in love with me, of course, WANTED to be done with the ex. But, in the end...well...the difference between loving someone and being IN LOVE with someone is all that matters.”
Green Eye Girl: The Holy Fucks
“I have not been single for a day in my entire adult life. Man, I had a boyfriend even when I was 16. I'm 33 and in another long-term monogamous freaking relationship. How did this happen?
When I was married, I thought about how I would be if I was single. I fantasized about being with all sorts of different people and just living an open and freely sexual existence. I was a lot more independent when I was married then I am now (by that I mean that we really didn't see each other that often and we practically never touched base during the day. There isn't a moment in my current relationship when we don't know where the other is). "
Rattlings, endings and leavings: Why I am not straight or gay
“Like most Idealistic Young Thangs (which I guess I sort of am maybe if you close your eyes), I have a world I'm fighting for. I'm not particularly vocal about it. I'm not in any activist groups, I've never been to a march of any kind, and I don't have money I can afford to throw at charities. (Even if I did, I don't think there's a charity working to achieve my goal.) But I do have an ideal world.
In my world, no one gives a shit.
In my world, no one bothers to ask you if you're straight/gay/lesbian/bi/queer because no one cares. In my world, we don't celebrate labels - because they are unnecessary. We stop worrying about what makes people gay. We accept that there are some Kinsey 0s and some Kinsey 6s and the rest of us probably fall somewhere in the middle. We allow everyone to express their sexuality without judgment, and if that means that someone is sleeping with women for a while and then men for awhile and then women for awhile, we don't bat an eyelash. In my world, there is no coming-out drama, because giant proclamations aren't necessary. Sexual expression is okay. Gender expression is okay. All attractions and connections are celebrated.”
Violet Blue: Open Source Sex: The Ugly Violet (Note: You should already know Violet, but this piece is a do not miss, so listing here anyway.)
“I just write and talk about sex. But every woman on the Internet gets called slutty and ugly and fat (to put it lightly) no matter what; all we have to be is female. In dinner conversation, my friend Lori reminded me of the Oscar Wilde quote, "Give a man a mask, and he'll tell you the truth." I restated it for the Internet, replying, "Give a man a mask, and he'll slit your throat." The application here is, "Give a man (or a woman) an anonymous account, and he'll eviscerate your self-esteem."”
Susan sez: Share some beautiful writing and some recommendations for new voices here. Who moves you, who interests you? Links, descriptions, quotes welcomed.
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These Women Are Brave
And so are you. Blogging about personal stuff always seems brave to me. And blogging about sex and relationships is the most personal of all and thus the bravest.
The one thing I don't see is women in happy marriages writing about marital issues. Jenn wondered about that a few weeks ago and thought that the issue was making your spouse uncomfortable by writing too openly about your marriage. I guess she was right.
Vered DeLeeuw
www.momgrind.com
Interesting point, Vered
Which writer said "Happy families are all alike?
There is this sense hapiness is hard to write about and that no one is supposed to admit to conflicts.
But no long or successful marriage lacks conflict, right?
So yes, the spouse's comfort has to be a factor...
Susan Mernit, Susan Mernit's Blog
Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina
Happy families are all alike. Every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.
One of my favorite books. :) Anna's relentless quest for the absolute of experience provides for an amazing reading. She is an amazing character.
And I agree. There's always conflict, but people are uncomfortable talking about it.
Vered DeLeeuw
www.momgrind.com