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So, I "Need" "Help" ...

January 22, 2010 8:46 pm by tyswickedstepmonster in Family
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Somehow being able to write gives me an outlet and makes me calmer, eases the resentment.

I opened my BlogHer account today and noticed that my post "I am Evil" has 650 views, but "And So I Came Clean" has less than half that number, "Awkward" is under 100. I think that misery and drama "sells" (my blog is not monetized).  Figuring out that you are figuring things out, does not.  Reality is boring.

In the process of coming clean, my husband read my first post, and the comments.  He immediately pointed out that the first two comments told me to leave.  This was not his favorite.  Almost all of the other comments were some form of "you need help."  My admission that I was going to get "help" didn't garner nearly as many comments.  Not as interesting I suppsoe.

Maybe I wanted to hear I needed "help."  .  Maybe I felt like I should take my resentment to a therapist.  Or maybe, I was hoping that a therapist would immediately get out his happy