Stalkers 101: When a Breakup Won't Break
First, let me say that I am a recovering push-over. I used to adhere to a misguided belief that men would, for the most part, treat me well and value me as a human being. Don't worry-- I have since learned to laugh at people who make such assumptions. By the time I was 24 I had only ever had one boyfriend and he doesn't really count any more than a package of Runts counts as a basket of fruit.
By the time I got around to dating again-- this time a Much Older Man-- I thought I'd learned a thing or two about cheating and abuse and liars. But I was really just getting started. We dated for 11 months, the last 10 months of which were pretty much hell. Months after I ended it I still hadn't wrapped my mind around how bad it really was... until a police officer told me it was the worst case of stalking and harassment she had seen in her career.
You always wonder about "The Why" of such situations-- surely there's a reason you had to go through all of this, etc. etc. I've come to the conclusion that it is so I can share the following Stalker 101: Tips.
Screening#1. Paranoia and Delusions of Grandeur: My ex was a former Green Beret and believed the government was continuing to track him even though he was retired. He got to the point where he didn't want to take me out in public because he thought we were being photographed and followed.
Screening#2: Jealousy: If he constantly tells you to put on more clothing or tries to hide you away because every other man on the face of the planet wants to sleep with you, that is not normal. A fair amount of the other men on the face of the planet are gay and do not want to sleep with you. And a lot of the straight one's don't either. You're not their type.
Screening #3: IF YOU WORK IN A PSYCHIATRIC HOSPITAL - DO NOT DATE YOUR COWORKERS: I'm not going to elaborate, I already told you I make stupid decisions.
Screening #4: He Knows Way Too Much About You: Keep your facebook profile private, otherwise the weirdys of this world will download EVERY photo of you, research them, and use this to fabricate fake common interests. "Oh-- I love Laos!" they'll say, and "Katy Perry is so awesome!" (okay that second one didn't happen. But it COULD have).
Warning Sign #1: He mentions something about being a sociopath (this is a bad sign).
Warning Sign #2: He tells you that hurting people is his only skill and that God put him on the earth so he could join the Army and kill people (that is also a bad sign).
Warning Sign #3: He keeps photos of people he killed in a war (because that is cause for concern).
Warning Sign #4: He goes into long passionate rants about the harm he will inflict upon some guy you barely know at work and mentions the use of a tire iron or baseball bat (that's not healthy behavior).
Warning Sign #5: He disappears for a day or so then comes back with various wounds and tells you not to worry but that he can't explain (this is actually a really good reason to worry).
Warning Sign #6: You're not able to go out with your friends for a happy hour without him screaming into your voicemail about all the infidelity you are committing (at this point you might want to reconsider your choice of partner).
Warning Sign #7: He expects you to leave your family in the middle of Thanksgiving dinner because he "loves" you and "you're beautiful" and he "has to see you" (none of that is really true, he is just a worthless piece of shit. Except actually you are beautiful, that part is true. But he's still shit).
*Has he stopped calling you by your real name and given you a name that is actually synonymous with the word "prostitute" in many countries?
* Have you begun to hear salacious rumors about yourself that include peculiar twistings of truths that only he knows about?
*Did he tell you that if you betray him (broadly defined) he will kill you and he won't feel bad about it because you would be his enemy, and he kills all his enemies?
*Has he told you that your body and/or sex appeal has rendered him helpless, he is now your slave, and then gotten down on his knees and worshiped you?