Still undead: I'm breathing and I'm back
By Lady Lazarus on December 16, 2013
So some of you may have ready my stuff as "venice in winter", and thank you for that! I'm still alive, and in one piece. I missed this, and I had to come back!
I haven't blogged on BlogHer or under the old name in a very long time, even though I enjoyed it. Fact is, I was getting pretty busy, and feeling really, really uninspired. And not just uninspired, but disconnected from many things I loved.
This was a chaotic year and change for us...we moved twice, I broke a long unemployment spell and took a job I couldn't stand but bought me to one I like now (yay!). But that was not without its own drama. I spent what felt like two solid months crying on my couch in our new apartment, terrified we were going to loose it because I was convinced I was about to loose this much better (saner, better-paying) job. Then, I'd consider my friends who were in even more dire straits than me, and feel guilty because I wasn't enjoying it. This was a hard place to get out of.
It took time. It took a lot of time and a lot of love from spouse and family. Eventually, I made myself do things again, even though I didn't see the point. I made myself play with some beads, or write something silly on a screen. I made myself go to the library and start picking at journal articles. I started to play with tumblr. I still drove myself crazy, but eventually I just ran out of freakouts. I just didn't have the energy anymore to spend hours weeping.
Things eventually settled down, and I started doing creative things again, including re-branding the shop, its blog, and all social media presences related to anything creative. It seems silly and shallow, but it's paid off - I'll be tabling at a con this February!
So that's it for the moment: where I've been, where I'm going. Keep stopping by - there'll be more and more interesting or at least off-putting things.
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