Strength in Body, Strength in Mind
By HeadAboveWater on May 12, 2014
I'm feeling stronger and more focused today. I'm not totally sure why, to be honest. This weekend, for no apparent reason, was particularly grueling for me mentally. I have absolutely no idea why, but my anxiety and OCD was out of control these past couple of days. Just out of the blue, it decided to act up with such ferociousness I felt incapacitated. I decided to fight back the best way I know how and exercised. Normally, it's not difficult for me to get motivated to do so, but it was for me this weekend. I decided to bite it, just do it, hop on my elliptical and chase out the overwhelmingly intrusive thoughts.
Let me tell you something: It worked. During my workout, I was punching the air while picturing myself punching my thoughts. The intrusive thoughts decided to creep in while I was working out though no matter how hard I punched them away. However, after I worked out, I noticed that I felt clearer and calmer. I know it had something to do with endorphins and something to do with lowering my cortisol levels, etc., but simply put, it felt like magic. Intrusive thoughts tried to take me down again after the work out, but I was able not to follow them on the crazy trail. I was more focused and centered.
The effects of working out last without me realizing it, I suppose. Today, I'm in a better mood. Today, my muscles feel slightly sore, and I feel powerful because of it. Today, I feel stronger, more alert, more focused, more anchored. When I feel stronger in my body, I feel stronger in my mind. This is my biggest motivation to sweat--knowing that I will feel better mentally and emotionally.
There are days when I come home from a full day of work that I don't want to do anything but lay around. Unfortunately, when I spend too much time being idle, my mind works itself into a frenzy. That's when I know, it's time to get up and DO SOMETHING, whether it be doing cardio on the elliptical, weights in the basement, pilates on my floor, or just some push-ups and planks. Even if it's for a few minutes, my body told me that I did something proactive, which tells my mind that I am a fighter. It means that I'm not to be defeated. It's empowering to know that I can take control of something.
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