Anyone who knows me knows I under normal circumstances cannot sleep because thoughts speed through my read at autobahn speed at bedtime. I had received phone calls that have changed my life and most certainly impacted my ability to sleep. I hope the 4 phone calls that changed my life are the last four traumatic phone calls I will ever receive.
There is a growing list of places and activities to avoid being compiled in my mind. The hope is that if I avoid these places and events, the deep sorrow over the loss of my baby girl will not overcome me while shopping for groceries, paying for coffee or driving down the street. Well, I think it’s fair enough to say this is a completely unworkable plan. I have a favourite funny movie that I watch to clear my head. The main character in Along Came Polly is Reuben Feffer. Reuben is a risk analyst who meets Polly, a world roaming free spirit. Reube
I love my mother. But if she passed away today I would be thankful. That doesn't make me a heartless, horrible daughter; I only want her to be free from earthly constraints and permanent disability....more
Dear Lord, Please give me strength. My 13 1/2 year old has a bit of the serpent in her today, Lord. It is before 8am and she was dismissive, as I was trying to serve her pumpkin pancakes. She waved me away because I requested that she use a placemat. With a roll of her eyes and a wave of her little hand, me the mother who gave her life, was disrespected. It was like that oh Lord. ...more
This is my first post! I just wanted to announce that after 6 years being a mother, I have finally found the time to start a career with my passion, which is no other than writing.For those of you who don't know me, I like to write about health, wellbeing, and many other topics that are directed towards improving your life....more
Childcare providers across the country are being confronted with a new group of parents. They are referred to as AP, which is short for Attachment Parenting. The AP style of child rearing was introduced about 15 years ago by a man named Dr. Sears, and has exploded in popularity in the last 8 or 9 years....more
My husband was recently in the hospital for nine days. He had two procedures, one leaving an 18 cm incision running down his chest, and several cocktails of antibiotics.I feel so badly for him becaue he hates being there. He doesn't get good sleep and he hardly eats. And then there's what it's like for me as his wife and caregiver. Every time, there are many things running through my mind....more
I did not make intentional mistakes on my baby girl. Most parents do not wish to make mistakes on their children. I, however, already regret the mistakes I made in 46 days of my precious girl's life. I can only imagine how other well-intentioned parents feel when, while trying their best, they make mistakes on their children. This is an unusual thing to appreciate. I am grateful that I did not have more time to make more unintended parenting mistakes during my daughter's lifetime. I will explain this a bit better.
The other day when I exited the ferry, a woman approached me and asked me if I am in her knitting group. "Yes. I am. I haven't been there because my little one was in hospital." "Oh yes you were having a baby. How is the baby?" "She lived for just over 6 weeks. We had her service over the weekend." I'm sorry to hear that," she said. I believe I changed the topic by saying I'll be back at knitting soon. She excitedly told me she learned to crochet the previous week. What great news! Just like that life goes on. I said farewell to my infant daughter. She learned to crochet.