Adam is in the ICU once again. He is fifty-three years old and over the last thirty-five years he has been hospitalized many times. The length of stay and frequency of his visits has increased dramatically, though during the these last four months....more
I am a married SAHM of two. My husband has Type 1 Diabetes, is on dialysis and has heart problems. Further, I am visually impaired and my daughter has ADHD. We are your typical “family of 4”….but not.Every single time I type all that out I marvel at what a mouthful it is! It’s a lot, for sure, but it’s our normal.Normal? The older I get the more I accept that “normal” is subjective. One night at dinner I asked my kids what they think of our little family. My 13 year old daughter said that we’re pretty cool, but also complicated. My 7 1/2 year old son simply said, “Epic!”....more
My husband had a nasty insulin reaction the other night. He hasn't had any so bad in quite awhile. He was alone downstairs after we put the kids to bed. I was upstairs in our bedroom watching Grey's Anatomy and Scandal, drinking a cup of hot chocolate and trying to get over how thoroughly frustrated I was with how our evening had gone.I was up there thinking how happy I was to just BE, me and the TV, and that yummy cup of hot cocoa. The stress of the evening was slowly melting away as I lost myself in my favorite shows.......more
Overall, I think it has been a good day so far. A decent night's sleep and getting up two hours later than on a work day had me feeling better about life this morning. Toasting bagels for the Manor's signature breakfast dish, the Spouse and I enjoyed quiet time on the mountain.
I needed a "finger food" dish to go for this afternoon and while standing in line at Wal-Mart last night, decide...more
Whatever strength I have in me comes from Love.I am loved hard, and I love hard in return.I've written on my blog ad nauseam about my PTSD, anger, fears and worries as regards my husband's last major health crisis (or his health in general). Those are the things I'm not proud of, that I struggle with and have to work through.But there was something else. Something I had forgotten about, or failed to see or was overshadowed by the fear....more
Every person in this world has one's own wish, desire or expectation towards something or someone. But what makes one happy and peaceful is that the love and affection that is showed to her/him. People who do not need to show love but at least they stop showing hatredness towards the persons around them....more