I’ve never been too optimistic. It’s not that I see the glass half empty. It’s more that I foresee the glass somehow tipping over and shattering, after which I get a laceration on my foot from trying to pick up the shards, which then that gets infected and turns gangrenous and has to be amputated in an emergency surgery.So I suppose you could call me paranoid....more
She knows she has another brother, one she can't play with or see or talk to or torment. One who won't torment her back, the way her eldest brother does. “He's in our heart,” she says, pointing to her chest.“Yes, baby,” I tell her. “He's in our heart.”“I'm not a baby,” she says forcefully. And she isn't, of course. She's four. But she doesn't only mean that she's too big to be called baby. She knows she'll always be my baby. Daddy's baby. Our baby....more
We sat on the right side of the church near an exit. It was natural for us to run to church as soon as we got home. Grief subsumed us and it was the most natural place in the world for us to run....more
It has been just over a year since my Grandfather, and shortly thereafter my Grandmother, passed away. In the wake of their deaths we have suffered a fracture to our family that can only be described as irreparable. What was said and done can never be repaired and time may heal all wounds but it cannot remove the salt....more
He was told he had two years to live, longer if he quit drinking. He didn’t quit. My ex-husband, Doug, decided that if he was going to die, he was going to do it his way and to hell with anyone that disagreed. This was nothing new, he was an alcoholic who thought only of himself. He had been diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver and Hepatitis C....more
It seems to have been another month. I really don't know how this keeps happening - it's not as if I'm this amazing social butterfly with no time to spare! But I will admit to a few flurries of activity here and there, interspersed with periods of boredom and even some mild bouts with the black hole of depression....more
Of course I did know this, but it didn't really hit me until now. Each family is different. We have friends that don't want kids at all. We know couples that have been trying and praying to get pregnant for over a year and nothing has happened yet. Miscarriages – both early and late term – have happened to many people we know.
https://youtu.be/v98cFsRXi8I I heard this song for the first time the other day and was blown away by the lyrics I think Prince Charming’s new job in Heaven must be as a song writer or as a muse for song writers....more