I'd Have Hidden the Body For Her

I met Jo Foxworth on my first job interview after college, when I applied for a position as assistant to the president of a "vest-pocket" ad agency. That morning, I borrowed my cousin's skirt and shoes and took the Lexington Avenue train to midtown Manhattan. When I arrived, Ms. Foxworth’s assistant wondered why I was an hour early. Embarrassed, I went down the street, ordered a cappuccino and killed an hour. ...more

The Absentee Blogger

For the last two weeks or so, I’ve been an absentee blogger. It is the first time I have gone this long without making 2-3 posts or more in a week. It feels strange not to be writing regularly. I love writing. But, I just didn’t have it in me to write....more

Listening to My Instincts

There are times when every instinct in your body tells you something is wrong, but you ignore it. You rationalize the situation. You tell yourself that you are being paranoid. Underneath it all you doubt your rationalizations, but hope your instincts are wrong....more

Uncomfortable, try Emptiness

You are uncomfortable with my tears how about my empty arms. I delievered two babies that are no longer here but talking makes it real, makes them real. Just let me talk about it becasue they were here and eveyone else gets to say their babies names. But oh no, cannot do that it makes people uncomfortable to hear about dead babies...but they were alive and they were mine. Why is others comfort level more important than my babies? I think spending too much time in comfort is not good for humanity it is in the spaces of discomfort that we become better humans....more

A Fine Line

So here is a deep deep thought I have been thinking.First, let me say that I don't think there is anything wrong with me missing my husband. I do miss him, and I am training myself to remember the good things and not the last few months and days and hours. I think I will always miss him, and that is okay. My golly, after nearly 30 years with the man, it would be very strange if I didn't!...more

Reviewing Finding Me by Michele Knight

 I just finished reading Michele Knight's book , Finding Me, about her survival from 11 years of rape and torture in captivity. Her voice is very direct and clear. She descibes her abuse but leaves some things private, which I applaud her for doing.  She lets us know some of how she struggled and survived. Her abuse was horrendous beyond imagining. She needed to tell her story and I am glad she did. Her determination to live was heroic. She has all my admiration and support. At first, I was concerned that she has apparently had no therapy work on her torment....more

Bigger Steps

Forget baby steps; I have done some Atlas strides here in the last few days....more

Seeking Silver Linings

Since the beginning of the year, I've had writer's block....A few bad days and difficult situations and my words get trapped inside my head....But this month something happened.... My Grandma...  The woman who raised me... died...........  The instant I received the news... My writer's block went away.. I'm still very sad.. ....and more than a little overwhelmed... ...more

A Mother's Touchstone

As a mom to three kids, I do a lot of going in and out of my house. Each time I go to meet a bus, or get into my mom-mobile, I revisit a piece of my childhood and one of my most treasured possessions…my quartz rock.The rock sits among shrubs from our home’s previous owners and some flowers and perennials I’ve planted. About a foot long, the rock blends in with its surroundings. It also stands out as something unique. Just like it did when it was in my mother’s garden. First in the house we lived in until I was nine and now at the house my parents remain in today....more

Gathering Your Thoughts

There are so many things happening in your life that you scarcely have time to breathe, but taking one breathe at a time moves you forward. It's not that you don't know where you're headed, you're just wondering if you'll ever get there. Life has a way of getting in the way and slowing you down. But life is what you need to get a clearer perspective. Pausing for a moment to gather your thoughts helps you to appreciate what the universe is offering you at this time....more