I have a friend on Facebook that I have not seen in twenty years. We went to high school together, and although I knew who she was, I don't recall ever really hanging out with her back then, but in the way of Facebook, we have gotten to know each other a bit over the last few years. I saw her posts about animal rescue and pictures of her kids - the usual online stuff. One day I read that her oldest son was killed. He was stabbed to death at his 21st birthday party. ...more
I was here working on a scarf last night; not for long as my eyes were tired and almost ready for bed.
I received a text on my phone.
Sue had passed.
It’s over. My friend had gotten her wish to be with her Mom.
After the text from the caregiver, around ten minutes later, Sue’s husband phoned me to let me know. I told him I was so sorry, and he started to tell me how he was waiting on hospice to come. He knew the day was coming but he was in shock.He cared for her for the last four years and was married to her for the last thirty-two. I guess I’d be in shock too.
What if you had no fears to stop you from attaining your heart's desire? What if nothing stood in your way of doing what you've always wanted to do? What if you were free to break out of the boundaries you've set for yourself? The world awaits you to do as you wish. Nothing is preventing you from achieving your heart's desire but you. It may be difficult to believe because you've given yourself so many excuses why you aren't able to reach your heart's desire that they have become your reality. Change the story that you've been telling yourself, then you can do anything....more
You may find yourself stopping every once and awhile and reflecting on the past. You want to make sure that you didn't leave anything behind. You can't stop the "what ifs" from popping up in your mind? You spend so much time looking at what has passed that you find yourself missing what is going on right now. It's so easy to forget that there is so much ahead of you when you relive the past over and over again. Somehow it never gets any better no matter how much you go over it. Looking back with regrets prevent you from see the picture clearly....more
Mom, we have to have a conversation. You are a wonderful mom, and you are a phenomenal grandmother. I look forward to so many years of you and my son playing hide-and-go-seek, cooking in the kitchen together and doing whatever crazy-wonderful things you can think up to spoil him....more
This has been a weird week. I got a phone call I think it was on Tuesday. It was the funeral home, and they wanted me to know that my husband's marker had been set. I was sort of expecting it to take 90 days since the paper they gave me mentioned that time frame for the leveling, sodding, etc. So it was an unexpected phone call....more
I’ve been sorta mia on my blog, we have been keeping busy and enjoying everyday… And then hear I go and get all negative with you but thought this was a perfect time to talk to you about my biggest fear. Anyone else think there should be a news channel that only reports on uplifting topics?!!...more
I wonder what today would be like if someone had whispered a secret in my ear on April 4, 1975.“Here is your little boy.” Hold onto him tightly. He is precious and yours to keep for 34 years. “Perhaps, today I would be able to feel the weight of his nearly 8 lbs when he was placed in my arms for the first time. I might vividly sense a tickle as I recall the movement of his head from side to side on my bare chest. I’m sure his new born smell would continue to linger and cling to me....more
I do sick calls for the Church.
I see three, maybe four people.One of them is my pal Sue.
After getting off the phone now, I have mixed emotions.Her secondary caregiver informed me they started her on hospice yesterday. She is getting morphine for pain every four hours.
It is nearly 5 years since the loss of our sweet daughter, Lucinda "Luci" and it is hard for me to believe sometimes that it has been 5 years since we received the terrible news.We are planning our annual event to celebrate her birthday on Dec. 8 and remembering her on the day she died on Dec. 9, even though I think of her every day. This year we are going to Lewis Ginter Botanical Gardens. Previously we have gone out to a nice dinner, to Newport News Park in Newport News, VA, to the drive-thru light display and spend the night at a nearby hotel....more