A Teacher's Thoughts & Fears Following Sandy Hook


I'm sure I'm in the minority when it comes to educators' obsessions with facets of the Sandy Hook tragedy. Most teachers are likely engaging in their normal, weekly ritual of Sunday night grading and lesson planning.

But not me. Sure, I'm lesson planning, but I'm also planning for something far more serious. I'm planning for an emergency using measures I'm not even sure about.

As if I already didn't feel the pressure of our children's futures bearing down on my shoulders daily, this...this makes that pressure a thousand times worse. And it makes me question whether I want or can even handle the responsibility of protecting other people's kids from death at the hands of a madman.

I'm sure our odds of encountering a situation like that in CT are less than our likelihood of winning the lottery -- or something like that. But people do win the lottery, and tragedies like the one at Sandy Hook Elementary seem to be increasing in frequency.

Tonight, as I prepare tomorrow's lessons on Arthur Miller's experiences with the House Un-American Activities Committee and Act IV of Romeo and Juliet, I am comforted in the task, knowing I can draw upon my undergraduate and graduate studies and my career experience in crafting a quality educational experience for my students.

But as I also prepare a disaster plan in my mind -- an attempt to thwart a perpetrator's entrance to our classroom and save our lives should, God forbid, one day our morning begin the way it did in Newtown that fateful day -- I am a little less comforted.

A lot less confident.

Increasingly apprehensive about my true role as an educator and whether or not, in a time of great duress, I'd be able to think quickly and act steadily.

Because trust me: while they provide a plethora of courses aimed at improving teachers' pedagogy and classroom management, they don't offer courses for that other kind of preparation in college. Not even close.



Full-time teacher, mommy, and snark.
Catharsis: Parenting and stuff. With mediocrity.

Photo Credit: xtrah.


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