There are no sick days for mommies!

There are no sick days for mommies

Each time I dare to get sick, I’m plagued with a recurring dream.

I’m in bed with an extremely sore throat or a painful stomach bug. I can barely lift my head up, yet I keep trying to reach my office to let them know I won’t be in today. But whatever I do, I can’t seem to get through to a single person who can help me.

I’m in a full-blown panic because I’m sick as a dog and desperately need to go back to bed, but responsibility calls. I have to reach my office to let them know I need a sick day, and I can’t rest until I do.

Then I wake up, relieved to realize that I am a SAHM and have no office to check in with. Nobody I have to answer to.

The relief is very short lived.

I remember a time, about two years ago, when my throat was so sore that I could barely breathe, never mind talk, without it hurting. I woke up to find my youngest, Peter, standing over me.

It was 6:30 in the morning.

“Mommy, I want sushi.”

“Peter,” I croak in a voice that is better-suited for a 1-900 number and not a mom of three. “Mommy is sick, go downstairs, and watch Nick Jr.”

“Mommy, I want breakfast.”

“Mommy, I need food.”

“Go into the cabinet… and get some cereal. Daddy will… get some muffins in a minute.” Each word hurt more than the last. I was in agony.

I turn to my husband, my best friend, my parenting partner, the man who sleeps right next to me. I can tell that he is pretending to be asleep, and I am less than pleased.

“Joe… Please… muffins… for… kids. I’m sick.”

“Mommy, I don’t want daddy’s breakfast. I want yours.”

I hear Joe’s muffled laughter and part of me wants to join in. The other, very sick part, wants to just cry. Since words are agony for me, I just sigh. The sigh that means I’m seriously considering single parenthood.

Knowing that he better do something fast, Joe adopts what the kids call his “mean-daddy” voice: “Peter, daddy will get some muffins from Dunkin’ Donuts. Let mommy sleep.”

I slip into the abyss once again.

Sweet slumber.

But not for long.

“Mommy.”

“Mommy.”

“Mommy.”

“What… is… it… Peter.”

“Can I hold your hand?”

“Yes, sweetheart.”

“I love you mommy.”

“I love you too.”

Now I’m feeling guilty. The poor thing just wants his mother. He is also probably scared since my voice sounds so strange, and it’s obvious I’m in pain.

I remember feeling the same way when I was little, and my mom was sick. Moms are Super Human. They can’t get sick.  My heart melts a bit, and I make a mental note to call and thank my own mother for not eating her young. I know my sisters and I tortured her when she was sick, just as my son was torturing me now.

“Mommy.”

“Yes baby.” I now use the sweetest mommy voice I can croak out for my child, who only wants reassurance and a cuddle from his mom.

“Come walk with me to the kitchen, and get me something to eat”

“Joe. Get… up…now… and take him with you before… I sell him.” I croak out before I just pass out and go back to sleep.

I faced the hard truth that day. There is a reason why I have had the same dream for as long as I have had kids. Unlike when I worked in an office, when I get sick now, there is nobody to call to let them know I won’t be in.

Mommies don’t get sick days.

 

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