Three Questions: What Do You Love? What Do You Fear? What Do You Want?

What a very honest contribution to BlogHer!
Here it goes:

What do I love - Walking down to the ocean taking a deep breath and being reminded every time how small I am. Feeling the fur of a dog. Hearing and sharing life stories with people I don't know and may never see again. Working in my office filled with books on women past and present. Family and friends. I love whales, dolphins and many other animals; watching them in their natural habitats.

What do I fear - That I won't live up to my potential. I will forget to say "I love you" and not have a second chance. That there isn't an after life and I won't get to see my father or my dog again. I fear I won't write all the ideas that I have in my mind...because I fear.

What I want - To travel the world. To choose my words wisely. I want to learn to write better. I want to maintain my relationships with those I love with less judgement of their choices. I want to grow old gracefully, stay active and keep my mind sharp. I want to feel and be sexual well into my senior years. I want to leave something meaningful behind when I leave this earth. I want to participate in initiatives to stop the trafficking of women and children.

I want to finally decide on a paint colour for my living room :)

Thanks for the post.

I love the smell of the top of my kids' head. It is grounding.

I fear losing someone I love.

I want to live patiently; without anxiety.

What a great assignment.

Melissa writes Stirrup Queens ( http://stirrup-queens.com ) and Lost and Found ( http://lostandfoundandconnectionsabound.blogspot.c... ). Her book is Navigating the Land of If ( http://thelandofif.blogspot.com/ ).

Thanks, all. I'm glad you got something out of my musings.

Rebecca Kling writes at The Thang Blog ( http://fridaythang.com/blog ). Her artist site is RebeccaKling.com ( http://www.rebeccakling.com ).

Wow! Thank you for being so honest! I think when we ask ourselves these three questions sometimes it's even hard to be honest with ourselves. I don't even know if I could answer these as candidly -it takes a lot of self-reflection, and confidence. I hope someday I can be as refreshingly candid as you.

Thank you so much for sharing this, I've been struggling a lot lately with vocalizing these very things. Deep breath...

1. Love
My niece's baby kiss. Creating a story moment I didn't know was inside of me. Humid summer air after getting out of the pool. My fat ass. Holding a partner's hand. The brief moment before a first kiss. Making people laugh with a good story.

2. Fear
That no one will ever love my body at this size. That if I get thin, I will be raped. That I have become complacent. That I am choosing the wrong path. Will never have a family of my own. My scripts will never be a 'success.' that I will let fear hold me back.

3. Want
A partner. To learn how to be happy by myself. To publish. To direct my own work again. To inspire others to overcome their own body issues and embrace their shine. Time to write and develop my own projects without financial worry. Another first kiss.

Saving the World One Fat Ass at a Time!

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