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My Life with Tori Amos: Whose Music Changed You?

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Originally posted on ThoseGraces.com

One hot summer afternoon in 1998, my older sister picked me up from field hockey camp, and when I got in the car, she turned on a tape I don’t remember my exact words, but they were something along the lines of, “What is this?! This is horrible!”

She told me it was Pandora’s Aquarium by someone named Tori Amos. It was the oddest song I had ever heard, and for some reason that made no sense, I ran out and bought Tori’s album from the choirgirl hotel and spent the next ten years of my life listening to Tori Amos.After my sister caught wind of my odd purchase, she made me mixed tapes that included Tori’s songs including some b-sides like Silent All These Years featuring Leonard Cohen. My love grew and I next purchased Tori’s first album, Little Earthquakes, which was singlehandedly the most important album of my adolescence.

The songs spoke to me in a way no other music did, and, to be honest, the way no other music ever has. I lamented angrily during Girl and felt not-so-alone while listening to Precious Things. I created figure skating routines to Winter.

In 2005 my Tori obsession hit its climax. That year I met her at a Barnes and Noble book signing, saw her perform live on David Letterman and scored a front row seat to her concert at the Hammerstein Ballroom. In retrospect, I should’ve seen it coming.  I was worn out and wanting something new.

The last album I bought of Tori’s was The Beekeeper, and to be honest, I cannot name a single song off of it. Tori started wearing wigs and over producing her music. Her voice was edited out of tracks and I couldn’t stand it–they just sounded so different compared to her earlier music. I didn’t know who she was anymore, and I wasn’t coming along for the ride.

Ultimately, artists change but so do their listeners. I think Tori Amos helped me through a very difficult time in my life, and I related a lot to her music. I don’t think my teenager years would’ve been the same without her, which is why it’s hard to say I no longer listen.

Do you listen to Tori Amos? If you don’t, who was that one artist for you when you most needed them?

Originally posted on ThoseGraces.com

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darthblonde 9 pts

I'm a huge Tori fan as well. I think Scarlett's Walk was where I fell off the grid, though, which happens to be one of my favorites to this day. I've still managed to purchase all the others since, except the newest one. I love Midwinter Graces this time of year. But, I agree - something about the wigs and overproduction and "summoning of the girls" just got old after a while. Her last few albums require 5 or 6 listens before something starts to stand out, which you could say for just about any album by any band. Thanks for your post! It voiced what I've been feeling for years!

Here is my tribute I wrote about her back in '05

http://darthblonde.wordpress.com/2005/08/26/the-qu...

thosegraces 5 pts

darthblonde Thanks so much!i really need to pick up Midwinter Graces. It seems like the perfect non-Christmas-y holiday album.

I fell off after Scarlet's Walk, too. It seems like after she left Atlantic, she went down this crazy road that she seemed like she had already wanted to be on but wasn't allowed to be.

Elisa Camahort 26 pts

Well, now I've been inspired to listen to an all-Tori set this afternoon! Little Earthquakes was revelatory. I liked under the Pink, Boys from Pele, From the Choirgirl Hotel, even Scarlet's Walk. But only loved certain songs.

Somewhere along the line I kept buying, but stopped listening. I haven't bought her release from this past September yet...which is somewhat shocking to me.

So, should I?

Denise 448 pts moderator

Elisa Camahort Yes, you should buy. For old time sake - but that's pretty much the only reason (in my opinion.) :-)

Elisa Camahort 26 pts

Denise Wow, that's a really compelling case, Denise. But yeah, I'm heading over to buy it :)

Denise 448 pts moderator

Elisa Camahort lol I knew you would. We are similar music peoples. *shrug* :-)

thosegraces 5 pts

Elisa CamahortDenise We should track how many records we sell! I don't think I'll buy this one right away, but I have heard amazing things about the string arrangements on it.

Canape 6 pts

I was super obsessed with her. Saw her multiple times, including the opening show for Under the Pink in London in 1994. I waited out back after a show in Memphis to give her a letter I had written her about how she had changed my life. I even worked for her chef at the show she played in Jackson, MS. He was indignant at all the things that you couldn't buy at a grocery store in our podunk town.

For me, it was not just the lyrics - it was a piano playing female singer/song writer who changed the way I looked at songwriting and music. She inspired me to write better, sing better, and put more of myself into my own music.

Boys for Pele was when I dropped off, although I still bought her albums out of gratitude for the first ones.

Have you seen the pictures floating around the internet of her plastic surgery? If those are real, they make me very very sad.

thosegraces 5 pts

Canape I'm glad you mentioned the plastic surgery, because I DID see a video of a concert she did a few weeks ago in Dublin and that was my first thought--that her face looked TOTALLY different. Like more round and full. Maybe it's just fillers and botox?

I love Boys for Pele, one of my favorite albums of ALL TIME. THat's so funny about her chef--I can totally see that!

camkin 5 pts

I discovered Tori when I saw the Crucify video on MTV at a hotel in South Carolina. (How's that for a specific memory?! But I can't remember if it was 91 or 92) Then I heard Silent All These Years and I just had to figure out who this woman was. Little Earthquakes and From the Choirgirl Hotel are still two of my all-time favorite albums. I loved every album until Strange Little Girls, that's when I started to lose the thread. Scarlet's Walk was ok and I actually really liked The Beekeeper, but for the most part, if I listen to Tori it's 90's Tori. And while I still buy every new album, I just don't have the connection with her that I had back in my late teens and early 20s. And the funny thing is, I had a similar conversation with a twitter friend right before the release of her newest album.

thosegraces 5 pts

camkin I've been talking about this with my friends as well lately. I've had a very similar experience to yours! For some reason, I really liked Strange Little Girls, but that is the last album I connected with. I bought Scarlet's Walk but didn't LOVE it. Same with the one after that, which I can't remember right now.

JennaHatfield 87 pts

I had a series of musicians that took me through various parts of my life.

Tori, Alanis, Dave Matthews, and others gave voice and beautiful sounds to the things I couldn't say myself. This is, perhaps, why I still listen to music from the 90's over anything else.

thosegraces 5 pts

JennaHatfield I totally agree! that's one of the main things that drew me to Tori.

Morgan Shanahan 15 pts

It was Tori Amos for me too. A friend introduced me to Under The Pink the last day of 7th grade, and it was about a week after I moved to NY for college that I lined up with new friends outside of Central Park's Bethesda Fountain in the wee hours of the morning to see her play live for The Today Show. That was the last time. She passed out muffins. :)

thosegraces 5 pts

Morgan Shanahan Under the Pink was one of the early albums I never got super into. I kind of went from loving LE to absolutely adoring Boys for Pele. Under the Pink never quite clicked.

And that's awesome that Tori Amos gave you muffin!