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For the first time in my blog history I have just got up and out of my bed to remove my own last post. I was very upset by the CTV's (one of our local television stations) decision to air something on this celebratory Olympic day. Like many people who saw it, I was terribly hurt.
It took me some time after writing to realize why.....I don't like the dark.
Sometimes in this world it is hard to keep your light burning. Dark colours, dark movies, dark comedy, dark clothing, dark news, dark shows, dark books and dark thoughts. People talk with me about protecting yourself from darkness by envisioning being surrounded by light but it is exhausting to do. I am highly in tune with my surroundings and therefore it takes a lot to shut out the noise.
It appears that there are tests for me to see how well I can keep focused on what I believe is my path. Today was that day, I failed. I gave my energy away and left nothing to nurture myself. Many of you may relate to this. It is my sincere hope that the coming months will be wrapped in a warm blanket of more love, more light, more laughter and more nature.
As I have gotten older I feel an even greater urge to run my hands over beautiful things, even the colours I'm attracted to have changed. Splashes of vibrant colours is something I crave, I took to orange some time ago and even my little Suzuki Swift is burnt orange. I rest my eyes more frequently on art, nature, words or music that washes me with a sense of serenity. Buying flowers gives me immense pleasure, I would have my home full of them if I could afford it.
I watch the birds fly in and out at my bird feeders and I talk to them as I go in and out my door. A squirrel or two has entered my garden everyday, along with raccoons to have me pause in my evening to remember I share this land. Most of what goes through my mind in one day is kept quietly locked up in this secret vault, it is my toy chest. When I have a day like today where dark people and dark things set to enter I go back and open "my" mind. I go to my soulful place where all that is good about living is safely stored and ready to remind me of my purpose.
Out my bed I rose to write this for me and for you. Its personal but hopefully it will encourage anyone who may read this, to find the things that make you, you and what makes you happiest. Time in a day is better spent in the light and then have the quietness of night to reflect on the magic of it all. Here's to the people, places, creatures and things that bring light into this world!
