True Comfort vs. Comfort Foods
This will be a short post for me tonight. I wanted to report that I did in fact buy my monthly pass for Weight Watchers online and have just returned from my first meeting. I am trying very hard to be transparent here and be honest about my life but I really am not going to share the actual number of how much my weigh in was tonight. Let’s just say I pretty much knew it would not be a nice low number. But – we all need a starting off point- the place to begin. And this is mine! Sharing with everyone what I am doing has been such a tremendous help in keeping me honest. I want to keep my word- so when (notice I said when and not if) times get tough you will know above all things that I am able to be trusted. That if I say I will do it – then that is exactly what I will do!!
So – over the next couple of days I will be making a menu for the next two weeks. I will be creating a shopping list and will stick to only what is on the list. My life for the next couple of months or so while I get all of this under my belt will be a whole lot about the question –“How many points is that?” And the thought after “Is it worth using my points to eat that?”
Should we talk about goals and why we are doing this? How come it is really going to work this time and not turn out like those other times when we would loose the weight and start to look really good? Then for what ever reason we would go off the plan and regain the weight we just lost plus how many extra pounds? Well this time it is going to work because I have been working the Made to Crave study and have been learning how and why I keep sabotaging my weight loss journey. It’s about where and what I turn to when I need the comfort. I have in the past turned to food- a lot! I mean look at me you don’t get curves like this by choosing wisely. You start to look like this when instead of turning to Jesus for his ultimate comfort – I turned to food for the quick fix.
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
Psalm 62: 5-6
“My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved.”
This time it will work because I now know where to go when things get icky in life and I need some comfort. It will not be food- food does not fix the issue. Time on my knees in prayer will fix the issue and time spent with God will help me walk it out.
It really feels good saying that out loud! To know that I will be the hot mom in the future gives me a goal to work towards. I am starting out with small goals so I can meet them and be able to move forward. I am still human and there are times that I think look at how much I would have to loose to weigh what I want. I was reminded the other day that it took time to gain this much weight and it will take time to loose it. I really am motivated now to get it off. My health will be so much better – I will be able to walk farther and to run, skip and jump with my nieces and nephew. I am looking forward to being able to climb stairs better so I can go sit on the bleachers and watch my niece play softball this next year if she decides to play. Most of all I want to be able to visit my son when he graduates from boot camp in December this year and be able to do more. I want to be able to walk as far as I need to in the airports getting there and not have to get a wheelchair! I want to not have to buy two seats on the airplane ever again and I want to be able to have Thomas’ friends look at me and not think “Oh Thomas – look at your Mom!” I know he is proud of me no matter what I look like but I want him to not feel like he has to defend me. I know that there is not much time between now and his graduation day but I can still loose enough to feel better and be able to walk further. That is my main concern right at this time. When I go and they give us a tour of the base and show us the things the soldiers in training did I want to be able to keep up. I don’t want to be the slow one!!
First menu planning – that way I can buy the needed groceries and I can spend one afternoon cooking this weekend. The meals will be ready when I get home from work and the fight to cook or not to cook with will be over because all that will be needed is some reheating and maybe throw a little salad together or something. I have a pile of information from the meeting tonight about the program and how it works to read through so I can get started!
Here we go – the first step to the new lifestyle I will be leading!! This is exciting!! Skinny is going to feel good!!
I am praying for you!