Unplan Your Life

When things first happen, they don’t always appear how they should be. They may seem daunting or scary. They may not be what you want or how you planned. Life may not be working the way you envisioned it would.

I had a plan for my life. I have always been career driven. Even before I graduated from college, I knew I wanted to be someone… to do something spectacular. Who and what that was, I didn’t know. I just knew I wanted it…almost desperately.

My journey led me to having my own talk show in Los Angeles, studying in Norway, volunteering in Africa, writing a self-help book endorsed by Brian Tracy, and becoming a motivational speaker. I never gave much thought to marrying and having a family.

That is until about four years ago when I went to Africa. I met twin eight-year-old girls and fell in love with them. Once this happened, I had an epiphany. I knew I wanted to get married and have kids. Ever since, I have been searching for “the one.”

Several months ago, I thought I found him. You know, where he sweeps you off your feet and you think, “Wow, this is what it is.” That is until reality sunk in after about a month, and I realized I refused to live with some idiosyncrasies, so to speak. Three days later, I found out I was pregnant.

Doing it alone, nine months later, my son was born. Norway, Africa, dog sledding, a talk show…those were nothing compared to this new highlight of my life….this new someone that I never planned on having in the way it happened. He hasn’t spoken a single word. He doesn’t walk, crawl, or laugh. But this little person who doesn’t even know how much he has impacted my life.  He has changed my life just by being…just existing.

Now instead of my planning my career life, I’m envisioning my new life…life with my son. I use to be a 10-hour a night sleeper, now I manage to survive on a fraction of that and wake to the sound of his crying for me….for me to feed and change him. Some say that is the greatest sound…a baby crying, but at 3 am, I could think of something that sounds just a tad better….silence and knowing he is sleeping soundly.

Now my days consist of tummy time and holding this little man, and what could be better?!  Right now, there is nothing better than spending time with the one person who entered my life in the most unpredictable, unexpected, and unplanned way.

Yes, life doesn’t turn out the way you plan. You may not get what you want when you want. In the end, you will be saying, “Thankfully,” just like I do every day when I wake up after three hours of interrupted sleep.

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