The verdict is in...

I was right about ‘Tuscany,’ dead right. Damn I’m good. My scum-detector is fully functional. Now I can smell them coming off like a cheap suit. I knew he was hiding something, and I finally got it out of him.

I'm no pushover. 

Yesterday morning came a  brief greeting, to which I replied equally as brief… then came the rest: (bad grammar included)

T: Brrrrrrrrr what a cold message. If we are going to know, or not depends 100% on you only, and you actually keep seeming not interested at all in knowing me.

CM: Hi… I was awake writing last night until 2am, I woke up a short time ago. I am in a fog, and just now having coffee and breakfast. My brain doesn’t function without coffee. So there you are,  a little more information about me.

T: Ok I am going to wait for you taking your coffee for reading your comments.

CM: Completely random comments/thoughts of the day: War is bad, gelato is good, I spend too much time at the pc, Diane Arbus was a great photographer, my head hurts. Time to go outside and see the sun.

T: No, I am waiting for your comments about yesterday’s email – “Sure I can only repeat that to know ME and my personality you have to meet me…but that is 100% up to you…And if you want to start knowing a bit of mine through here for sure I need to “feel” something from the other side to as I am not Hamlet or Platoon…. and that is 100% up to you too… Have a great day.

CM: Sorry I didn’t get the reference – Platoon? It’s a war film by Oliver Stone. You said many emails ago – “eventually,” so why are you pushing it? And just curious – how would that work? you are 5 hours away, so you must have some idea or scenario how it’s possible – I don’t really, because I don’t drive. So do tell.

T: The Greek philosopher. Maybe you forgot you NEVER told me you WANT to meet me, and as ANY meeting can happen if BOTH persons want it to happen, it is nonsense to start thinking about such meeting may happen until BOTH person WANT it to happen. Life is always one step at time.

CM: Oh, PLATO. Ok now I understand. Exactly – one step at a time. Finally we agree on something. sure we can meet, but I don’t know why you focusing on this so much.

T: Ok, so let’s focus in thinking about when and where such meeting may happen.

After somewhat  reluctantly agreeing to a meeting, I mentioned I wasn’t free this weekend as it will be my birthday, or next  – as I may have an appointment (actually a date with another guy). He said he almost never has weekends free anywways as he has a son. I had either seen that and forgotten about it or completely missed it. Damn! you know you have been reading to many profiles when…? I told him it was bad timing and it’s not going to work. But there was more…

T: If we BOTH don’t strongly want it, it won’t work for sure…and that was something I kept saying since the VERY beginning.

CM: Do you NOT understand I am a serious person, and I am not seeking possiblities in this world only to be someone’s casual “friend.” And I get the impression you are open and will accept these kinds of scenarios for yourself – and that’s fine for you. It’s just not for me. It doesn’t make a difference if you want it or not. Everyone has responsibilites, and they come first. This is life. If there is no time, then there is NO time. It’s simple. facts are: 4-5 hours is not a short commute, I don’t have a car, or an expendable income to rent myself a hotel room somewhere (because I am going to Copenhagen in April, and I need money for that, and of course my blood money to INPS to stay in this country). So if you have some grand idea – you can say, I am happy to listen. And what about this child’s mother?

T: Again and again: If you don’t strongly want a thing to happen – You can’t find even a second, if you DO want that thing to happen, be sure you’ll find a way. THAT’s life. I am very