So this is my first entry. I am not writing this blog for any reason. I just have a racing mind and need a semi-safe place to put it.

I feel like I am waiting for some big event in life. I have been in a relationship for three years and it is hard not to have expectations. I think girls are programmed to want this fantasy.  You know man, kid, car, and house. Yikes, am I being too pissy about it.

Sometime I wish I could join a convent. No men and no sexual worries. I think that I would find a way to think about them anyways.

I wonder if others feel that relationship expectations take up too much of their time. I'd rather be riding my bike or something but nope I am obessing about HIM.