What I learned from my Luggage

 

 “In each of us dwells a wanderer, a gypsy, a pilgrim. The purpose here is to call forth that spirit. What matters most on your journey is how deeply you see, how attentively you hear, how richly the encounters are felt in your heart and soul”.
—Phil Cousineau, The Art of Pilgrimage

New situations inspire new thoughts. Here is the benefit of travelling, much more than in mere sight-seeing. We lose ourselves in the streets of our own city, and go abroad to find ourselves.

CHRISTIAN NESTELL BOVEE, Intuitions and Summaries of Thought

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New situations inspire new thoughts. Here is the benefit of travelling, much more than in mere sight-seeing. We lose ourselves in the streets of our own city, and go abroad to find ourselves.

CHRISTIAN NESTELL BOVEE, Intuitions and Summaries of Thought

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New situations inspire new thoughts. Here is the benefit of travelling, much more than in mere sight-seeing. We lose ourselves in the streets of our own city, and go abroad to find ourselves.

CHRISTIAN NESTELL BOVEE, Intuitions and Summaries of Thought

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New situations inspire new thoughts. Here is the benefit of travelling, much more than in mere sight-seeing. We lose ourselves in the streets of our own city, and go abroad to find ourselves.

CHRISTIAN NESTELL BOVEE, Intuitions and Summaries of Thought

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Travel and painting are two of my passions.  I have created a successful home based business that allows me to do both.  I was able to combine these two passion in March 2014 with a 3 week trip to Bali and a seminar called "Bali, The Eye of the Spirit" where I studied an old masters technique called the Mische-technique.

I was excited that I was able to take two suitcases with me and they each had a 50 pound limit.  I could take one just for my art supplies and one for everything else I would need for 3 weeks.  When I got to the airport the curbside check in would only take one of them, telling me I was only allowed one.  Inside I was told that I was able to take 2 and as I checked the second bag I said " are you sure they will arrive together?" and the clerk told me not to worry. They would arrive together.

The trip from Minnesota to Bali is a grueling 28 hours long which includes three flights, including Minneapolis to L.A, L.A to Brisbane, Australia and Brisbane to Bali. Indonesia.  I arrived safely in Bali, tired, hungry and in need of a shower but my luggage didn't follow me.  I had two suitcases and neither of them followed me. Here I was after almost 30 hours of travel wearing the clothes I had been wearing since I left Minnesota two days earlier and that was it. My suitcases were lost. Essentially all I have are the smelly clothes on my back.  No toothbrush, no toothpaste, no deodorant, no make up, my hair was a mess from sleeping on the airplane, I had no other clothes, my $$$$ worth of art supplies were also missing and I was about to meet a group of people I have never met before!

Every trip we go on can become a pilgrimage if we allow it and this was about to become a deep journey into myself.

One of the things that has grown more and more important to me over the years is living an authentic life and being authentic in my self-expression. My whole life has been about stripping down to my authentic soul expression, letting go of the incessant self talk that gave me a false sense of who I am, and which was not supportive at all.  Thank you very much Universe, for this big opportunity to practice a new way of being!!!   I felt grungy and stinky and greasy and there was nothing I could do about it!  Talk about vulnerability! I admit that on some level I am vain.  I like to look great and I feel better when I do. I think that make-up, styled hair and fabulous clothes make me more acceptable.  I believe that I don't look that great without make-up, with unkempt hair and greasy skin and dirty, stinky clothes, what can I say!  Unfortunately I have fallen for the superficial standard of beauty that I had grown up with, like a lot of people.

I made a commitment to journal my way through this three week adventure and my journal gave me a place to sort this out.  My journal and a spare pair of underwear were in my back pack with other non-essentials.

It was clear to me immediately that this trip was about authenticity, trust and gratitude and I had a choice as to how I was going to respond.  I was entering paradise and was being asked to be totally authentic.   I could choose to shut down because I didn't have all of those crutches that gave me a false sense of beauty. I couldn't put on make up, blow dry my hair or put on a costume that would help me feel more beautiful, more acceptable and more worthy, so I could just hide and wait for my "stuff" to show up.   The other option was I could allow myself to be seen stripped down and be okay with it. I could wear the outfit I had, sleep in it, leave my hair the way it was, share my greasy, make-up less face and not care what people thought.  That sounds easy! Right!

Wow! Could I embrace the fact that I was more than this body, more than my things and more than my hiding spaces when the programming in that direction was so strong?   That seemed to be the test in front of me.  I was filled with questions as reflected by the following journal entry:

 " Trust!  can I trust that people will like me the way I am in this stripped down state? God! I have been covering up what I don't think people would accept all of my life!  I need to embrace my natural, authentic beauty or no one else will be able to.  This isn't about anyone else, this is about ME!  Can I trust that I can be just me and be okay?  Can I embrace this beingness and show myself love, compassion and acceptance?   This means I have to drop self-judgement, self consciousness and let my soul's light be the light of beauty that people see.  I am not my clothes, my make-up, my weight and all of my superficial displays of "beauty" that I have internalized along with most of the population.

Why do we enter earth from a place of authentic soul expression and forget?  Why do we no longer see our true beauty and get sucked into this physical trap called "human"?  It's mind boggling!  What awesome creatures we are to let go of what we really know to be true, to put ourselves in amnesia so we can experience this and evolve from it.

Can I trust that in the right timing my suitcases will come back? Can I trust that they will come back at all and if they don't and I lose all those things that I thought were important, it's okay, it doesn't matter, this seems so purposeful to me."

The other thing that was really clear to me was gratitude.  Despite the fact that it appeared that I had lost everything, I was in  paradise!  I was healthy,  guided and protected and with a group of like minded people with the same drive to create and express something deeper.  I was in a place in the world where many people don't get to go.  I have created a blessed life and sometimes I am not aware of this.  Gratitude is the awareness of the blessings, big, small and in between, that we receive every day.  My life was filled with them and I sometimes lose sight of that.  Authenticity and living an authentic life brings these blessing to the forefront because we are living in the moment with them.  This insight made it easier for me to let go of what I thought I have lost and be okay.

With these insights in hand, I entered into my experience in Bali...

We are always at choice.  We can chose how we respond to the situations in front of us and the field will respond.  For example; I could choose to be miserable, fearful and self judging because my luggage was lost, poor me, and the energy around me would follow that flow. That is how the law of attraction works.  Most likely the feedback I  would receive would reflect my self judgment. I also knew that  the field would respond to that expression in a different way than if I were to choose authenticity, trust and gratitude and decide to embrace what is happening and flow with it in grace.  I was on this trip to experience joy and creativity so my choice had to be the latter one.

I decided to embrace my situation as a grand opportunity to grow and become more authentic and it stretched me every minute. I asked for it every time I affirmed that I wanted to live an authentic life. I decide that this was the most humorous trick the Universe had played on me in a long time!

And so dear readers,  I went to the market and bought a new outfit because what I was wearing was too hot for Bali.  I wore it each of the first three days of my trip, slept in the top, and put the same pants back in the morning.  I showered each day and let my hair dry in a mass of cosmic curls and worn no make-up.  I started to feel that it was more important that my luggage was lost than it was for it to come back to me.  I embraced what I had, was grateful for the experience and didn't judge myself and I survived.

Finally at 3 AM one morning there was a knock on my bungalow door and when I opened it, there was my luggage!

I remember thinking to myself " I wish it would have stayed away longer" because I needed time to integrate what I feeling.

The first three days of my trip to Bali were a grand experiment, a cosmic joke and the beginning of embracing the stripped down Katelyn.

Thank you to my luggage for going off on a journey of your own for a bit!!

 

 

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