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I wanted to write this post on my personal blog, but I couldn't. Why not? Because HE reads it.
I am a member of the friendly divorce club. Our marriage and inevitable end of was not a sob story. It didn't involve long drawn out court battles or name calling (well maybe I name called a little bit, but I'm childish like that). We didn't lie, or cheat. We just didn't love each other and only got married because of the bun in the oven. The divorce was quick and relatively painless. We are both remarried to great people and have a good relationship all around. But sometimes...sometimes the guy still gets to me.
Like the fact that he reads my blog! How in the world he found out I had a blog to begin with is a mystery to me. The fact that he can use a computer left me speechless. Once I got over that, my husband pointed out that well at least I was getting him to read. Haha. Very funny.
It should not upset me like it does, except that I feel like I have to censor what I write sometimes. I hardly mention him, but when I do, it's like typing on eggshells so I don't upset the delicate balance of our "friendly divorce". I wrote one post about when I was pregnant with the Monster. I innocently mentioned the incident when I had kidney stones and cried on the couch all night before going to the hospital the next morning, by myself. He slept through the whole thing. I didn't say he was insensitive or inconsiderate or anything of the sort, but still he was offended. He called me, furious, saying that I must remove the offensive post immediately because I was making him look like a douche-bag to the whole Internet. He said, it not me.
Every now and then I can't help but get a jab in at him. This is an excerpt from my post this morning:
The Monster was on the phone with his Dad (the ex) the other evening. I hadn't gotten around to telling him about the whole Homecoming Crown Bearer thing yet. Not because I didn't want him to know, but because I just had not spoken to him since I found out. So when I heard the Monster say something along the lines of, "Yeah, they picked me for the Homecoming thing.", I thought, now how in the world does he know that? Oh wait! I remember. He reads my blog. So in typical Ashley fashion I acted like a 4 year old, and when the Monster asked his Dad how he knew that, I hollered across the kitchen, "Cause he reads my blog!" Yeah, I am so grown up. Anyways, true to typical Monster fashion he adopts this accusing voice and says, " Why do you read my mom's blog?" Gosh I love that kid. Of course I can't be too irritated, because as the ex pointed out to me once, if you put it on the Internet, anyone can read it. So true.
I hate to be reduced to acting like that regarding my blog, but it's MY blog. Why does he need to read it? Does anyone else have this issue with their ex or is just mine who has set out to diminish the happiness and freedom I get from blogging?
